Even though I'm a boy, I can't see the future

Nice to meet you, today.

From my home, I pioneered everything from scratch to search for mentors and monks, received kudō, practiced ascetic practices, received Denpo Kancho, and founded a temple in one room of my home at the end of last year. Four months have passed since the 15th of this month, starting from nothing and nothing. A storm of life called difficulties raged through the world, and how to live with a penniless family... there was conflict and impatience, and a lot in the past... I was given a lot and a lot of suffering called despair, and I lost sight of myself, and my life was lost. I didn't even want them to be saved, but they were resuscitated, went back and forth between the equinox, and pulled back to this shore. At that time, I became a disciple of the Buddha, who resented that there was no god or Buddha... and opened up a lot of difficulties such as this or that... and the events that have crept up over and over again even when dropped are not negative, and the past will always be revealed... various things that transcend time and space were utilized, and they were saved even by my immature words... and shed tears... even when they are living a life close to being penniless... I think that it was my arrangement, my wish, and the task I was given was to be able to save people who are trying so hard to get out of the same situation, and I practice ascetic practice through hard trial and error every day with the intention of protecting and sticking through this unknown small temple even when they are mean.

There are no shining Buddhist altar fittings, or splendid clothes, but like the senior monks here, my ambition and desire to save you more genuinely than anyone else is unbeatable. A temple... originally, I think it was a place like a convenience store in modern times where not only funerals, etc., but also the arbitration and worries of marital quarrels could be easily confided, and you could feel free to talk about anything and visit. Right now, I am aware in my own way that it is a turning point where everything returns to the starting point and restarts. On the 365 day, I will continue to work with Mr. Ofudo and Kobo Daishi to thank them for being able to be needed without a break. I want to laugh a lot with everyone, cry a lot... and stay a friendly monk. Various religions and our ancestors have overcome difficulties over and over again and are there now. We too have the power to overcome it. Our role is to take over what has been entrusted to us and connect it to the future. There is religion for the sake of jikkō Yoraku. Like a diamond, it will stick through without bending its mind and not giving up. Don't lose sight of yourself. Gassho

It doesn't matter what sect or what temple you are the son of.
It's probably an apprentice monk who never went to the end of his life, but whether he was worried or lost,

You are already a [Buddha disciple].

If I get lost, I'll go back to the starting point.
When I don't understand Buddhism, I go back to Buddha.
This is basic.

　Read Elder Sumanasara's books.
I also studied various forms of Buddhism until the age of 33, but I had nothing but the exact same feelings as you.
I met Elder Sumanasara, and he was taught in the sermon that the path leading to enlightenment and enlightenment is inaccurate in the Chinese translation sutras, etc., and that accurate things remain only in the Pali scriptures. They talk about themes similar to other monks, but their point of view and understanding are completely different.
However, the Japanese translation of the Pali Scriptures (the one from Katayama Kazuyoshi's Okura Publishing is excellent) and even the Pali language itself is so hard to understand just by reading it.
After all, it's best to ask someone who actually did it and got results to tell me about it.
What's more, if it's Elder Sumanasara's, the streets are full of Japanese ❣. Please learn, understand the content, and try something called Vipassana meditation.

By the way, please never stop studying Buddhism at Japanese universities, which you are currently working so hard to do. Since I had that foundation, I think the speed of learning was fast.
Buddhism, as it used to be at Japanese universities, is just a bit inaccurate, and people with good intuition still understand the content. Studying as a foundation is enough for Japanese Buddhist studies.

Good morning.
At the end of the question, there was “I just want you to listen to your concerns,” but I don't feel like it's fully explained in about 720 characters.

> I'm hopeless about the future because I can only find the meaning that monks are needed in the social system other than “showing people their initial dreams and taking care of their minds.”

Don't worry, the meaning can be updated and updated.

I don't think about dreaming or caring.
Don't let your dreams get drunk by showing them your dreams! Buddhism teaches “to wake up.” I was taught that.
Marketing, branding, and follow-up to “showing Karisome's Dream” are far more sophisticated for people working in the idol industry than monks.

I'm not taking care of it. Even if an opportunity for care is presented, it is the person himself who recovers.
Instead of taking away the experience of overcoming difficulties themselves, they get to know reality, good and bad, and think together about how to survive from there. I'm in that position.

Rather than the future potential of being dependent on care where you cannot live without being cared for, I think that leading to a path where you can feel safe with self-care has future potential, and you can have prospects for the path to attaining Buddhism.
The first step in thinking about the significance of Buddhism is to listen to the beneficiaries.
“Does it help my Buddhism?”
“There's no way the world will calm down with a bit of sutras on my level, and I'm worried about my own immaturity.”
Please ask the question to the beneficiaries who give alms.
Perhaps a hint of the Buddhist significance that society wishes for is hidden in another answer that is different from “I want to have Karisome's dream” and “I want to be cared for.”

> People deny that monks profit (ri).
In fact, since it is a priest, I feel that it is too commonplace to do something in exchange for money.

I did not dare say that I am a parishioner or believer, but rather a beneficiary.
It is not the monks who benefit, but their opponents.
Rather than getting money as compensation, I think it is common practice for monks to use the compensation obtained for their own desires without investing in Buddhism or beneficiaries' profits.

Can we selfishly invest in Buddhism?
The founder of Hasunoha here is not a monk, but I am attached to that attitude.

I'm sorry for saying such selfish things.
It's not a complete denial, and if you change your perspective a little bit, your future will be brighter.

There was a time when I was worried too.
If I have a relationship, I want to listen carefully to the story

Thank you for your question.
I think it's a good idea to aim for your ideal monk.
I think it would be great if I could become a monk who could pass on correct medical knowledge to people like a doctor, teach morality and scholarship like a teacher, listen to worries and suffering like a counselor and relieve them.
Alternatively, you can decide that you want to stand on the same stage as Buddha and go to Thailand, Myanmar, etc. to become an apprentice to a Theravada Buddhist monk and practice.
Also, monks who support the lives of parishioners mentally and physically, and monks who work on volunteer activities every day are also wonderful.
Please cherish the high aspirations you have hidden in your heart, learn widely, including those outside of your own denomination, and gain lots of experience by working for a company, participating in volunteer activities, and participating in various monk activities.
In the process, I'm sure you'll be able to see the path you should walk.
Also, it depends on how you read any kind of book, whether it's a pseudoclyph or a real one. Whether the line spacing can be read. Can you read the root of words? What is the book's author trying to convey?
May your Buddhism be fulfilled.

Although you still don't feel the need
I have the right to be involved with people in need.
There is already an environment where people are involved in need.

someone who needs you
By getting involved with people who are waiting for you
I think your question will be resolved.
But you'll also notice things you want to change.
At that time
All you have to do is build your own statue of a monk.