About the Graduate School

When I read the question, I felt that your problem was “my vaguely decided way of life was asked for the first time, and when I first thought again about what I really wanted to do, I felt uneasy because I felt like there was nothing.” Until now, you've only been having fun, but now you've faced yourself for the first time and are getting scared, aren't you? So anyway, it seems like they want to let go of that anxiety as soon as possible. For humans, the scariest thing that requires courage is facing oneself. Maybe you haven't had to face yourself until now. There are several times when humans must face themselves. That's where it matters. If you get a job just because you're uneasy about the here and now, don't you feel uneasy when you run into problems again?

Why don't you face yourself to your heart's content here? Run away now, do what's right in front of you for the time being, and even if you cover your eyes with anxiety, you'll encounter the same anxiety when you collide with a major event someday. Maybe I'm the one who doesn't know what I want to do, and I also want to do biological research. Surprisingly, humans don't know what they want to do that much. What's more, it's natural that I'm in my early 20s and haven't made a firm decision about what I want to do. So, don't think you're weird or hopeless. Rather than how people around you are doing, how do you want to walk yourself? Prioritize how you want to live. Is there any point in going to graduate school? But what is the point of getting a job?

If you were even a little interested in the hospital, it means there was something that caught you. That little bit of interest is fine. Let's explore that interest. If you get caught even a little bit, you can go. For example, you don't have to compare yourself to people, such as feeling weaker than others.

Now is the time when we don't know the future due to COVID-19. Isn't it okay to be a year or two behind others? You are facing something very important right now. I think it's okay to think slowly about yourself with that kind of feeling. The important thing is whether you are convinced. Don't entrust your life to others. Conversely, if you think about it enough, you can go any way.
[Reference book: Let's do a self-analysis] School where you quit your part-time job, the new unemployed, disorganized person Sakaguchi Kyohei talks about Sakaguchi Kyohei, a way of thinking to live peacefully by working only 3 hours a day, only realizing a determined future... etc.

Hello, nice to meet you.

You're worried about your future, aren't you?
Since it's important, various thoughts will come and go.

Although my field is different, I went all the way to the humanities graduate school (doctoral program), so I hope it will be helpful, and I will write my impressions.

“It made me realize that there was no uniformity in the research themes of the institute I wanted to apply to.” At graduate school, there are professors with expertise that are broken down by field. That graduate school has an orientation for research common to that teacher's field of expertise, so I want to go to that graduate school, and this is a reasonable way to apply.

Also, it would be even better if I could give a specific explanation that this teacher is interested in this book or paper and had this kind of thought.

It seems like you didn't respond well in the interview. I think that's because I wasn't used to choosing words that could be explained all to people, and that I wasn't able to logically organize my research intentions.

In the future, you'll always be asked about your motivations and research plans in interviews at the graduate school you want to apply to, so I think it's a good idea to memorize all the questions and answers you expect from now on. Being able to respond with improvisation requires considerable academic depth and expressive skills, so I think it is necessary to improve it to the extent that it is possible to take and answer for the time being even when it's awkward.

There is a saying, “The field of biology, which I felt was so much fun, didn't feel fun even when I was studying for graduate school entrance exams.” I think it's difficult to keep having fun all the time, even in the field you like. However, I also think this is where we can take a step forward. I think you can think of your interest as a rite of passage to rise one level from an amateur to a professional.

It would be foolish to give up.
Shouldn't we move up a gear from here and try to make an effort to the point where we forget to sleep or eat?

Hope your dreams come true
I'm rooting

When I was in high school I was good at chemistry and I liked it
It wasn't the school I wanted to apply to
I went on to the Department of Chemistry, Faculty of Science.

But there were plenty of experiments in 3-4 years
Continuing this as a job for the rest of your life
I thought it was a little impossible
I got a job at a financial institution.

I'm tired of quotas and relationships even there
I joined a relative's temple and took over as chief priest.

What do you want to say
“Everything is impermanent”
It means everything continues to change.
your intentions, values, and circumstances
It changes moment by moment.

just
What is your current situation
I think it's a period of stagnation due to the COVID-19 pandemic.
Whichever path you take
You can get involved with the original intention.
No matter what kind of place
If you're seriously working on it
The road will open up naturally, so don't worry.

I read it.
I think it's a great reminder, and I think it's a new starting point.

I'm sure you have a future ahead of you where you can make your big hopes and dreams come true.

Please don't be in a hurry, take a fresh look at your feet, and walk through your life step by step while considering through trial and error.

I support you from the bottom of my heart.