What should we do from now on? Please give me some advice.

Tamasama
Nice to meet you, my name is Tetsuya Urakami from Nagomi-an.
Sorry for the late reply.

It is said that Tama-san is in her 20s.
The fact that Sonotama has been suffering for 13 years means that she has been suffering for at least half of her life. There is no such thing as “you have yet to go,” and I am surprised that you have endured that suffering so often.

A person's life is uncertain in their old age. As you said, there is no guarantee that the elderly will die first. There are times when children die before parents, and grandchildren die before grandparents.

But, Tama-san. Now you're alive.
And I made a decision eight years ago.
You may feel that these are harsh words for those in distress, but I'm wondering if you can somehow maintain the determination you made eight years ago.

I think there are other painful feelings.
Please let me hear it if you don't mind.

Do you think that if you kill yourself, you'll feel better... it's just an illusion that you'll be able to feel better.
To die by suicide is simply to temporarily hide yourself from the various hassles of this world.
Have you ever thought about your parents' aftermath after you committed suicide?
Please think carefully. I wonder how painful that is...
You've been fooled, so maybe that's fine,
Remaining behind, you said, “My parents are kind and generous parents. No matter what state I'm in, I'm on my side.” There's no good reason to throw your parents to the bottom of their suffering.

Please speak carefully with your parents.
“My parents are kind and generous parents. No matter what state I'm in, I'm on my side.”
With your precious parents who say...

Also, I think it would be nice if you could consult with the NPO corporation Suicide Prevention Network “Kaze.”
http://www.soudannet-kaze.jp/

Nice to meet you, Tama-sama.
The depth of Tama-sama's suffering spanning 13 years can be seen over and over again, “But I'm already tired.”
Is the feeling that you are deeply loved by your parents the only thing that supports you?
But what if Tama-sama escapes from that suffering (I don't even want to think about it...)
Your suffering will double and remain in your parents' hearts.

But Tama-sama came to Hasunoha looking for final salvation.
The monks here are all worried about you and are trying to snuggle up to you.
Please let out the inside of that painful heart!
If the form of disclosure is no longer possible, please contact me by sending a message from Facebook or Twitter etc. to the monks here, including me.
I don't think we can solve it right away, but we can work together.
We're here to help with your suffering!
Please let me hear more about the inside of my heart.

Tama-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

It's really hard and painful to live. Big or small, everyone spends their time with anxiety and fear while battling various suffering every day...

Life, old age, sickness, death... or love, separation from love, bitterness, unrequited suffering... we have all kinds of suffering...

However, the Buddha, who attained enlightenment, gave up the “Four Sacred Pillars” of suffering, gathering, destruction, and abandonment as a way to deal with such suffering. There is certainly suffering, but there is always a cause and condition (relationship) for that suffering, and assuming that cause and condition (relationship) can be resolved by clearly determining the cause/condition (relationship), it is of course possible to eliminate that suffering as a result, so I was able to explain the methods and means for that in a variety of clever and convenient ways.

So, of course, if you search for a solution to Tama-sama's suffering from the vast array of Buddha's teachings, you will surely be able to find a solution to Tama-sama's suffering.

However, due to my humble life, unfortunately, I'm still an immature person who is still uneducated and untalented, I can't immediately show it as “this is it”... I'm very sorry...

However, as one suggestion, why don't you take this opportunity to start learning Buddhism little by little, and work together to find a way to solve this problem?

Everything in this world is made up of the flow of cause and effect. Therefore, there is always a cause or condition (relationship) for Tamasama's suffering and hesitation, and as a result, it must now appear as such. Therefore, I think that searching for ways to somehow change the cause and condition (relationship) flow from within Buddhist teachings and putting it into practice even on a trial basis will be a hint for “what should we do in the future.”

Anyway, first of all, I would be happy if you could understand a little bit about suffering and hesitation as an entity, that it cannot be said that it exists as an entity forever and forever, and that it is something that can be changed depending on the cause or condition (relationship).

Once you understand this, the next step is to think about how specific causes and conditions (relationships) must be changed and adjusted and then implemented. By all means, let's work together while studying Buddhism.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

Whether you're the same or standard, try abandoning that sense of belonging altogether. It's fine if it's just in your heart.
You are only one person in the entire natural universe.
Even if you were born from your parents, you all have different hair, skin, eyesight, hearing, smell, taste, and physical abilities.
Please don't be bound by relationships with others, and try to live as an individual, really yourself.
Even if it's temporary, it's fine.
Really forget your friends, family, and names, and just be one.
Forget your title and position.
You won't be able to love your “true self” or “just your self” if you don't let go of all your ideological arguments.
They probably think they are nothing, inferior, and boring.
That's because we're making comparisons.
Each human being is absolute. There is no opposite of absolute.
I have no one to compare to. Each one exists in its own way.
Please forget your Tokoton title and become a mass of life alone.
As a result, there will be things you can see for the first time.