Hello, nice to meet you.
Your pain is strongly conveyed from the text.
It must be painful.
The feeling of thinking about the “guy” you've never met is probably huge within you.
However, they are being asked, “What was he...”, so why don't we think about it together first?
There is a saying, “As a result of my anxiety and questioning, we were never able to meet again.” If you were a really important boyfriend, would you take the method of “asking questions” and not being there? Don't worry, don't you think I'll do my best to make you understand this? I can't read the evidence that this was done from the text.
There is a saying, “I made him angry.”
You were “anxious,” so you “questioned.” I said what I wanted to say. But he didn't accept it and just left.
Now imagine it.
If it were his “future,” I think.
My husband can't even discuss it, and if I don't like it, I just go somewhere else.
We can't even discuss it.
I have to keep worrying about where and what my boyfriend, who is “unemployed at age 28” and “takes money from girls and does things like dates,” is doing.
I can't say what I want to say, and I don't run out of worries.
Is the “future” you envision that kind of “future”?
They say, “They were very kind and always worried about me.”
Isn't that a beautiful phrase just for the upper part?
It wasn't an irresponsible phrase with no content, which would leave you alone in case of emergency and go somewhere else.
Right now, I don't think my broken heart will heal.
However, along with the good memories, I think the lessons I learned were also significant.
Please calm your mind little by little, and look forward at your own pace.
Take care of yourself.
