I feel like I'm creating a fake self.

Makaroni

I understand that feeling very well. You don't want to be a deliberate hypocrite ^_^.

The reason I think that way is because I worry too much about people's eyes.
Being able to use one's mind also seems good at first glance, and it also causes suffering. Since you look at your surroundings with your own thoughts at the center, it becomes easier to decide that it is better to immediately add good or bad, black and white, or that it should be like this.

When you take action, it's best if you can act without worrying about people's evaluations.
I just take for granted what I would be happy to do and would be saved. It would be nice if we could do that.

I don't care about people's eyes, I'll just do it. That's probably important.

There is no doubt that Makaroni's actions are wonderful. Keep on going with confidence.

Makaroni-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is a humble answer to the question.

“Fake” is written as “for people,” right?

It's hard to understand when you say “fake” when you write it for people...

Well, I say “mercy is not for people.” In other words, it means that it will eventually go around and become “for myself.”

It doesn't matter at all. Even if you think it's hypocritical, use mercy and do more good things for that person. I think it's totally fine at first, even if it's because it will eventually go around and be “for myself.”

Also, whether false or fabricated, your factual actions are no one else's actions, and there is no change to the real thing as your factual actions.

Therefore, whether it is a fake or real thing, that action is accompanied by one's own responsibility.

Good deeds and bad deeds. If so, of course, it is better to work hard to do good deeds as much as possible.

In Buddhism, there is also the term “self-interest, etc.,” but it is the same as saying that an act of merit or good fortune that benefits others can also benefit oneself towards enlightenment.

Simply put, it feels like making people happy is making yourself happy too.

I'm not writing this answer 100% because I think I can be of service to you, even if I'm humble. If this answer is a good act that is useful in any way, of course, I am included in returning that merit to everyone.

Or maybe it's because of Jusei's own Buddhist practice or devotion to Buddhist practice.

Don't be atrophied by thinking too deeply, and I think it's fine for others for myself.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

With a silent profile, you and I must have understood the flawed persona
Repeat the cruel battle for happiness because of love
Even so, I can't stop my tears, and the heart of hope is called by each future together

Now, when I hear fake or hypocritical, I associate it with masks and personas, and further associate it with the lyrics above, it's Shogen.
The above are the lyrics to the OP song by IDOLM @STER XENOGLOSSIA, doesn't it matter?

OK, on to the main subject.
There's no one who hasn't made themselves.
There is no such thing as no two sides at all, and there is no one person who has a consistent face for all people throughout their lives.

That is the problem that not only faces shown to parents, faces shown to friends, faces shown to people you don't know, faces, but also voices become louder when speaking on the phone
Being yourself is something like putting a mask on top of a mask and putting it on and taking it off
In other words, that's the general condition, and there's nothing strange about it.

However, I am myself with all of that included. Even if you have remade yourself depending on the time, situation, or opponent, this does not mean that it is a fake.
It's the same even when applied to actions, and it doesn't matter if you usually do it at the supermarket or give up your seat, it's all because you want to do it yourself, and even if you have a feeling that you want to be seen by a good person even for a moment.
You are doing that right now, and that is the firm truth, reality.

So you don't have to think about that yourself if your actions are hypocritical; you can do it if your heart wants to do that; it doesn't matter.
They often say, “do hypocrisy rather than do good if you don't do it.”

It may depend on what you call hypocrisy, but what you do is not hypocritical; it is good.
Do more, keep doing.

Creating yourself isn't a bad thing; creating yourself means adapting that much, so just don't be disliked by that too much.

　Dogen Zenji of Eiheiji Temple left the phrase “When he sees a cramp and sees a sick person, he doesn't ask for an apology; he simply says good to Toshiyuki.”
They say, “When I see a turtle in trouble or a sick sparrow, I don't want to thank or thank you, and I feel very, very naturally, that 'I have to help. '”
Note: These “troubled turtles” and “sick sparrows” are folktales handed down in China, and when they both helped turtles in trouble and sick sparrows, the people who helped became happy. That's the story of Tae. There are similar folktales in Japan, right?

This “moyoosu” is the point, isn't it? The word “moyosu” is often used when peeing, isn't it? No one pees for reasons such as “because it's bad for your health if you don't pee.” I just want to pee.
In the same way, they say that when you see someone in trouble, you feel unsteady and “want to help” just like you want to pee.
I wonder if Makaroni is like that too? I wonder if something is moving naturally? I later made up my own reason for why, and said, “Isn't it hypocritical?” I wonder if they're suffering from it?

A good act is something that both those who do it and those who watch feel good. Let's do it refreshingly without thinking too much about it.