Good evening.
Nono-sama says that there are no occupations you want to get in particular, nothing you want to do, and no special skills, but there are no such people.
Also, it is said that you can't find the meaning of the value of your existence, so you don't need to ask for meaning.
The answer is quite simple; it seems that you are here and now, that is the value and significance of your existence above all else.
Certainly, now may be a time when everything isn't going well, but when I read Nono-sama's question, I feel like I'm being driven by blaming myself more and more, and I feel alone. I don't have any hobbies, no special skills, no friends, I'm stupid and clumsy, I'm not good at socializing, and I often can't do better than people; isn't that created by my excessive assumptions? If that's the case now that your career path hasn't been decided, why don't you write down the upbringing of your own life that you've lived until now, from birth to the present, in as much detail as you can remember in order to break the spell of that assumption? From there, you should always be able to see the occupations, dreams, hobbies, and things you were good at before, and you should also be able to discover why you became bad at socializing, and you should also be able to discover the parts that led to this by writing your life history. If you gradually reflect what you've seen in that way to who you are now, wouldn't you be able to move forward even half a step from your current situation? As for the fact that you don't have any friends, don't try to force them to make them, and if there is even one person you can forgive, I think that's enough.
I'm still young, and I'm praying that you can go through life without being impatient.
Ryusuke Gassho