I'm tired from work
I work as a doctor in Tokyo.
First, working hours are long.
I go to work until 7 in the morning, take a break for lunch for about 15 minutes (there are times when there are no days off and no meals), and leave work at an average of around 21:00. If it's early, it's 19:30, and if it's late, I'll finish work after the date.
After working in the middle of the night on duty about 4 times a month, I work normally the next day as well.
Even when I get home, I get a call from work. I go to work at 8:00 on Saturdays and Sundays, and I can go home earlier than weekdays, but basically there isn't a day when I don't have to go to work. I take a full day off every 2-3 months due to my boss's consideration.
I also feel that the responsibility is huge.
Of course, I think there are responsibilities in any job, but if you make a mistake, it can be life-threatening, so the burden on your mind is huge.
I don't know when I'll be called to work urgently, so I can't even go out.
There isn't much to be appreciated by patients. I don't work to be appreciated, though.
When performing painful or painful procedures, etc., complaints may also be made. This is also painful because they are doing it to improve the patient's condition while feeling sorry.
It's an occupation I chose myself, and I'm getting a decent salary, so I'm not dissatisfied. I often get harshly scolded, but my bosses are reasonable people, and there's nothing unreasonable.
Recently, however, I've been running out of room for my feelings.
I don't want to die, but I think I might die if I work this way.
I'm a woman, but my period is gone because my lifestyle is irregular. Recently, I'm tired and it's a hassle to come home and take a bath.
On the other hand, my boss tells me that when I was around my age, I was even busier at work.
Certainly, I think I have to work harder to become a full person.
I don't feel like quitting, and I'm thinking of doing my best at work with a strong heart.
I'm sorry, but if you get words of encouragement, etc., it seems like I'll be able to do my best.
Thank you for your support.
