I want revenge. And what would a Buddha do?

　I'm always indebted to you.
In a question a few days ago, I said “I was kicked in my cart by an old woman with dementia”
I'm a bad person. The police responded kindly at the time, but I myself
Stomach bugs won't fit.

By the way, why did I know it was dementia was my own nursing experience and
When I talked to visiting nurses who have been working as psychiatry for decades,
“Oh, that's clearly a symptom of dementia, isn't it?”
That's because I was saying that.

I found out she lives close to my home so I won't get caught
I'm thinking about revenge to some extent. Girls' Generation was also on a rampage to some extent, so
I understand the moderation somewhat.
She doesn't remember me, by the way. Wear the exact same clothes as back then until your eyes
That's because even though they matched, they didn't get involved.
When I told my doctor about it,
“Surprisingly, people with dementia remember that kind of thing, so Lotus's
It's better to stop for a peaceful life.”
I was told.

Certainly, if you have been investigating cases etc. of peripheral symptoms of dementia since then,
“A patient who no longer dye his hair gray said to his neighbors, 'What is that head is completely white, isn't it? '
I was told, and I didn't like going in front of that person's house.”
There was that.
Dementia is something I often forget about recent things, but things I was afraid of,
The characteristic of dementia is that you remember negative events such as being sad
But it seems like it is.

When I go out for training, etc., I often run into them, probably because my activity time is close
I'll put it away. Every time I do that, my heart beats fast, and my breath becomes difficult.
There were days when I couldn't go to training because of that.
Even now, I'm still writing questions trembling with anger.

I want to get revenge, but if I do that, I'll remember it and be treated like being followed
It becomes... but there are also people who want to let them blow one bubble. It's a dilemma.

What would Amita-sama or Ofudo-sama do? Even if you get hit or kicked
Don't you even care? Secha Kadōji would be crazy.

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Listen carefully to advice as advice

Hello.

I had a relationship with “a few questions from a few years ago.”
How are you doing after that?

It seems that the attending physician advised them, “Surprisingly, people with dementia remember that kind of thing, so it's better to stop for the sake of Mr. Lotus's peaceful life.” What meaning did you take that advice at that time, and what did you think?

Have you thought about quitting?
Or maybe the stomach bug didn't subside after all, and “she doesn't remember me,” so you thought about “getting revenge”?

As a guess, I think the attending physician warned that “revenge” was an illegal act (injury crime), that “revenge” was an illegal act (injury crime), and “people with dementia surprisingly remember such things,” they were immediately identified as you, and that you would not be able to live your current daily life.

Nevertheless, it seems that you are concretely thinking about “revenge” methods in your mind. “I found out that she lives close to my home, so I'm thinking about getting revenge to the extent that she doesn't get caught.” And they say, “Girls' Generation was on a rampage to some extent, so I understand the situation somewhat.” I presume this is the confidence to “not get caught” and the confidence that “moderation” can be adjusted and “rampage.”

Now, imagine it.
Let's say they “went on a rampage” by “not getting caught,” and lowered their drinking slightly.
However, from that moment on, new anguish that you may be “caught” or that your “rampage” will be revealed will occupy your mind whether you sleep or wake up in your life.

In anticipation of these things, I think they are saying, “It's better to stop for a peaceful life.” Listen carefully to advice as advice. It's important.

If you were to kick the Buddha statue of “Amida,” it would theoretically be possible to “beat” it by imagining that figure in your mind. However, if you think it's “Amida-sama,” not “Amida,” I think you can imagine that it's not about whether or not you're “mad,” but that you're probably sad to see me do that kind of thing, and that it's probably sad to see me do that kind of thing.

well then.

Don't hold a grudge even if your body is cut by a saw

The Buddha was told by his disciples that he should not get angry even if someone else cut his body with a saw.
Buddha doesn't worry about anger, so I don't think he would mind being attacked by others.
On the other hand, we have our worries, so there are times when we get upset.
But even if you take revenge on an old woman, if she is reported, you will become a criminal.
First, imagine yourself being arrested.

What you do always comes back to you.

Thank you for writing about My Painful Heart.

What you do always comes back to you.

If that old woman also kicks you, she may be kicked by someone with dementia other than you at some point in your life or in the next life.

But that's not you.

This is because you are very different when you are consciously trying to take revenge on that old woman.

If you consciously take revenge on that old woman, I'm sure the same thing will happen to you somewhere in your life.

Everyone is equally likely to develop dementia etc. as they get older.
You are no exception.

You can't do anything about dementia on your own.
You can't control your emotions, and you can't remember anything, right?
Unbeknownst to me, I was disliked by my family, and I was taken care of by others at the facility, and I couldn't go back to my own home anymore.

What if you were in that old woman's position?
Isn't it very painful?
Aren't you sad?

That old woman is painful, but there is a high possibility that she is not able to properly recognize that pain, and she is not even able to properly express her desire to ask for help, so there is a high possibility that she is violent.

I think they might have kicked you and asked you for help.

If you put yourself in that old woman's position and think about that old woman, feelings such as wanting to get revenge will go away.

If you can't even imagine an old woman's position, and if you want to get revenge... if you do get revenge...

Don't forget that somewhere in your life, there is a possibility that you will have your own body and experience it so that you can understand that old woman's situation.

If you run wild with just your own feelings, you will often end up regretting it, and please be aware that this itself is in the same state of mind as an old woman with dementia.

In difficult times, let's pray to the Buddha.

Gassho

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