A dream I gave up

Flower bone-sama

I think I should stop expecting that there are no guarantees in my next life and try painting again now. It's even more so if you have a strong sense of loss. You love painting that much, don't you?

Even if you can't enjoy it right now, there will come a time when you can enjoy it and play it comfortably.
Even if it doesn't make money, if you draw for people and they are happy with it, wouldn't that just make you happy?

Pictures have the power to move people's hearts. Even without words, it appeals to the viewer's heart.

The time spent worrying and suffering now should fertilize the future, and I think it would be nice if I could continue as a hobby.

Good evening.
I'm sorry.
According to our purpose,
I don't have the confidence to guarantee creative activity in the next life under the same or better conditions and environments.

If it was such a support in your heart that made you want to die,
Rather than deciding to completely retire and thinking that I should never draw comics again,
I rest when my heart is hurt. Let it recover.
I think taking good care of that will pave the way.

Hurry up and don't leap forward until the next life,
Set up the system a little more, not for eating, but for myself
Why don't you think about reviving in this world after resting?

Speaking of Buddhism, the possibility that humans will be born in the next life is extremely low.
It is said that the probability is about dropping a string from above the sky and passing it through a hole in a needle on the seabed.
Also, as a Jodo sect, when we run out of lives, we go to the Pure Land of Paradise by Amida Buddha, so we are not born into this world.
So, I want you to cherish the present world we are living in.

I don't think there are many people who enjoy writing comics.
There is a pain of birth in every field when it comes to making things.
I think creating cartoon-like works is even more difficult.
There are many manga artists who stopped serializing because of that. Hunter Hunter, Berserk, etc.
Toriyama Akira hasn't been serialized since Dragon Ball either.
You're not the only one suffering.
Also, people who find it difficult to create and draw alone write with two people, and there are also people who make comics based on original novels.
Well, I wonder if any of those setbacks are impossible.

Even if you change jobs, keep doing it as a hobby.
Maybe one day we'll see the light of day.
There is also a way to self-publish.
There is also a way to publish it on the internet.

Please let me read it once it's published on the internet.

It's about believing that it's always possible.
However. I don't think your current state of mind is favorable. You're probably filled with that sense of loss when you're frustrated. I understand that feeling. You must love comics. Isn't it just a coincidence that we weren't able to get recognized by the world this time around? I think you should continue to write comics for your own pleasure. as a hobby.
There are a lot of independent publications and doujinshi on Comiket, right?
Why don't you show your work when you're taking a day off at Comiket or flea markets? One or two people love your work! People who say that will always show up.
Please draw again. I want to see the next one! If you say that, you're a successful person. I'm sure manga artists aren't the only ones who have had big hits and are now able to eat because of it. Enjoying manga in this world is my passport to success in the next life. Please take on challenges little by little while working and living. There's still more to come. If you have one or two fans, you're a great teacher. I think the soul is energy and thoughts. The manga was great when I was old and picked up! If I had you who could say, I would draw comics in the Pure Land of Paradise, and it will definitely work well in the next life. Now it's about accumulating small successes in this world. while having fun.
I sincerely wish you every success.