I'm afraid of my parents

　Good evening. I also read the previous questions and answers. I received the feeling that you are reflecting on your past self and that you are heartbroken by what happened at your current school.
Also, reading this one, I am thankful that “being in it, they have maintained a sense of self-reflection and a feeling of being kind to others.” I don't know the details, but there is no way that children can spend a peaceful time in a family where the couple is not on good terms. If you don't release the stress you received there somewhere, you'll get a puncture. It says “say luxury,” but I think “of course you have the right to raise your voice.”
I think the fact that you met Hasunoha here and wrote about the past and present is also a kind of liberation, but if you see a parent who yells (even though it has no effect), please take a distance and look at them, saying, “This is the only expression of this person's suffering.” Originally, if they were parents, they shouldn't show that kind of appearance, but they've probably both lost that kind of leeway.
They probably both said, “I'm not wrong. correct. They're probably arguing with each other on the belief that “that's why you're no good.” That's because I'm in pain, and as long as I hold on to this belief, I can't feel at ease, but I probably can't find any other way. That's a pity.
So, realistically, you should start planning your life after leaving school. You should think about the path to independence. You might think, “The kids around me are more nervous...” but other places are other places.
Do you think they'll let me go to high school? What should I learn in the meantime (it's not a subject)? The structure of society, wages and taxes, what is necessary for living alone, etc. There's so much information right now, so I think it's easy to look it up (which one to believe is another matter). Write out roughly what you want to do until about five years in the future, and write out what you should do in the near future to the extent you can think of (it's easier to organize if you use a mind map). It's easy to feel helpless when you think of it as a “punishment,” so let's take it only as “the result of a relationship,” and think “the next step from here.”

I don't feel comfortable at home, so I don't want to go home.
I don't want them to shake their children around because of parent (couple) issues. If you get hit and yelled at for that, it's not something that has accumulated. Have you been putting up with it all this time? that's painful, isn't it?

The relationship between parents may not change. Currently, it's impossible to fix it. As a child, you can't do anything. If you do unnecessary things and your family falls apart, it would be a big deal.

Let's become independent as soon as possible.
Get out of the house and distance yourself from your parents.
To that end, I have to gain strength.
Get ready to study and go out into society.
If you become a member of society, you will leave your dependents.
Let's think carefully about our future.

Hello, Mr. F.

My parents are bad, and the family atmosphere is bad, isn't it? I also understand that F's mind doesn't calm down. Children can't choose their parents. It hurts my heart to put up with it and live with my sister. If I make up just a few excuses for my parents, my parents are only troubled people, even adults. It's not perfect, so please understand that many things can cause them to live a way of life that disqualifies them as parents. Parents, just like you, are struggling with parenthood.

On top of that, it's about how to live. First, if it's just abusive language, don't start from right to left, and find a way to live your own way. It can be sports, or it can be studying. You don't need to make your life worse by your parents' problems. Find someone you admire. Please do your best so that you can quickly become independent from your parents towards that goal. Once you graduate from junior high school, depending on your efforts, you will be able to leave your parents and live the way you choose for yourself. There are also high schools where you can leave your parents and live an independent lifestyle while working. First, create yourself not influenced by your parents.

Also, in the unlikely event of violence, please go to the police immediately and ask for protection. There are also places where you can live away from your parents.

It's painful, but if you can't stand it, don't worry alone and talk to an adult you can always trust. It doesn't matter if it's Hasunoha, and it doesn't matter if it's me. They will definitely save you. Let's fight together to make F-san happy. Gassho

I read it.
I read that you are having a very difficult time living with your family. I don't understand all of your thoughts, but I really understand how you feel.
Please don't just hold that situation or thought within you, but try talking about it here too. Or why don't you talk to a school counselor? Local governments also have various consultation desks. (TEL: 189) (TEL: 0120-0-78310)
https://www.city.osaka.lg.jp/kodomo/page/0000050489.html
https://www.mhlw.go.jp/stf/seisakunitsuite/bunya/kodomo/kodomo_kosodate/dial_189.html
https://www.orangeribbon.jp/youth/counter.html
You're not bad at all, it's not like you're being punished.

You are a very important person, and you have the right to live and grow every day with peace of mind and peace of mind.
And you're never alone. You are still being watched over by so many people. Please share your painful feelings to the extent possible here, and please lighten your heart even a little. And you will definitely be able to overcome it by receiving advice and support from many people. Please don't be alone and consult with various supporters, and please actively receive advice, encouragement, and support. We look forward to welcoming you.