I don't know how I can get to school

There's no need to overdo it at all.
Originally, school was a place of learning and nurturing, but there are many truant children like you. Don't blame yourself. don't blame me. It's like a microcosm of an adult society, with bullying and complicated relationships. That's why the number of children who can't go to school due to bullying or harassment is increasing. After he committed suicide, whether bullied or not, his life was irreplaceable. You don't have to go to school if you don't like it. It's compulsory education, so I have to go. That's a lie! It's compulsory education, so I can graduate without going the other way around. It's fine! But you can't just play rumbling games at home. I'm going out into society now, so I can read books and be able to read and write well, and then computers. Make sure you can use Word, Excel, and PowerPoint. Once I can do this, I'll be able to do something about it. It's an educational background since high school, but there are ways to learn by correspondence or on a fixed-term basis. You should get used to it by talking to very few people. I'm scared because there are so many people. Don't worry. There is a facility for truant children, called a free school, close to where you live. It would be nice to go there too.
Never overdo it! It's fine. Something will work out. I'm rooting for you.
I'm praying for happiness.

Rin, that's great, she opened the house. When I was in middle school, I experienced how difficult it is to confide in my worries when I was young. But with this hasunoha, you have overcome suffering and have the courage to break through. Your problems will definitely be solved.

Humans have many different minds. There are people who love school life, and there are also people who don't. It doesn't necessarily mean that it will work either. There are many people who have overcome truancy and become great, so don't worry.
Are you currently truant? If you are truant, read lots of books. Whether it's literature, novels, or comics, it's fine. Anyway, let's read on. If you do that, there will be a protagonist who has lived the same life as you, and he will solve your problems. It's not recent, but it's my favorite comic, and the main character in Peach-Pit's Rosen Maiden was a truant boy. It was a story about gaining courage through friendship with a mysterious moving doll. Please read it. I recommend it.

Life is long. You can quickly recover from a slight stumbling block. Now is the time to gain knowledge. Schools are also originally places where knowledge is acquired, so it's the same. Reading books is the best time to learn. When I was a college student, I was able to become a monk thanks to being a bookworm. Gassho

Aren't you carrying a lot of baggage?

It's hard for everyone when they keep carrying luggage packed in all kinds of things.
There may also be a way to throw away heavy luggage right away,
If every piece of luggage is important, that's not the case either.

If that's the case, hold your luggage for a while now and sort it out little by little, even though it's painful,
I'll try unloading the luggage I can unload. Why don't you make the luggage you keep carrying a little lighter?

I wrote it like a quiz,
Why don't you sort out what your luggage is?
Think about it like “Oh, this is heavy luggage,” “I want to keep it safe,” “it's heavy, but let's carry it on my back for a while,” and “this is the luggage I can unload right now.”

◇Intense disgust and fear of not being able to go to school isn't necessarily the only cause, is it? What kind of events and triggers occurred, and what piled up and became luggage?
Is that what you felt when you were in elementary school the same as what you are feeling now, or has it changed?

◆There are words from family members and people around you that you take with you on your back, and there are also things you can quickly put down. The baggage of every word from the past is light for you but heavy for your family, and even a casual word for your family remains in your heart.

◇Going to school itself is one of life's baggage. If it's worth carrying, you can put up with it, but you also have the freedom to drop it along the way. If you want it to be heavy, you may be able to separate it and make it lighter than carrying it on your own. For now, why don't you leave your “I have to go to school” luggage for a while and take a break?

Are you currently imagining yourself skipping without carrying any luggage?
I saw your words and imagined you as a hard worker carrying a lot of luggage while working hard.

I'm not saying you don't have to work hard. But it's hard to keep trying so hard, so why don't you organize your luggage a little bit?

Dear Rin

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

Instead of thinking about the two options of going to school and not going to school, I hope people think about the future in terms of what they want to do, and what their dreams and goals are.

Therefore, what becomes important is relationships.

I think it is necessary to improve the current situation in order to have good relationships and be blessed.

First, let's improve our lives little by little, then try to be able to take care of our surroundings on our own as much as possible, and further prepare ourselves so that we can become independent.

If you can go to school, there's nothing better than being able to attend school, but as Mr. Miura Yasuaki already said, there are various options, such as a correspondence system/fixed-term system, free school, or passing a major exam and heading to university.

More than that, after all, no matter what, what exactly you want to do and what you want to be, motivation and motivation are important. I hope you can take this opportunity to think about it for a moment.

There is a person named Ieiri Kazuma who has also experienced truancy and withdrawal, but has successfully started a serial business by utilizing his field of expertise and sensibility.

The share house “Riba House” (http://liverty-house.com/), which serves as a rushing temple for young people, has been set up all over the country for truants and people who are withdrawn, and they are being supported and cheered.

By all means, if you are interested, please borrow Ieiri Kazuma's books from the library and read them. It might lead to some good stimulation.

I pray for good deeds.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

You can also try zazen.
Look for a temple nearby that has zazen ceremonies.
It is a temple of the Soto sect, Rinzai sect, etc.
Avoid emerging religions.
I think the participation fee is free or low.
You may not be trapped by trauma or negative emotions due to zazen meditation.
If it's hard to go alone, it's fine if your parents tell you that they want to try it once because the monk recommended it, and you can show me this screen.

My name is Kameyama Junshi.
For students, school is the place where they spend the most time in the day, excluding sleep time. Therefore, I want school to be a place where people can live a fulfilling life. However, in reality, there are students who are unfamiliar with school life. The reasons are varied. People who have poor academic ability, people who have problems with relationships, and people whose reasons are unclear, etc. If the cause is clear, then the cause should be eliminated. In response to that, what should people who don't know the cause do? Also, what should people who have a clear cause but can't find a successful solution do? Buddha became a monk at age 29 and attained enlightenment at age 35. It took 6 years to attain enlightenment. Also, Shinran Shonin, the founder of the Jodo Shinshu sect, went down Mount Hiei after 20 years of studying at Mt. Hiei and went on his way to Nembutsu. Was 20 years at Mount Hiei a waste for Shinran Shinto at that time? I think it took 20 years for Shinran Shonin to encounter Nembutsu. I believe that a way of life without rushing for answers is necessary not only for those who have become truant, but also for those of us living in a modern society where time is pressed.
These are my answers. I wasn't able to give an immediate answer, but I hope it helps even a little bit.

If you think you have to go to school, you can go, but you don't have to force yourself to go to school.
That's all, please find what you want to do.
Kobo Daishi Kukai dropped out of college and committed himself to mountain training.
There seemed to be a strong will there.
You, too, should first look back at yourself, think about what you want to do now, and then do it.
One method is to practice ascetic practices at a temple. If you haven't finished compulsory education now, they won't accept you, but it's possible if it's an ascetic experience. Zazen meditation might be one thing too.
If you can't find something you want to do right away, one way is to go on the Shikoku Pilgrimage. It's an ascetic practice that takes about 2 months to walk around 88 places. It's about 1200 kilometers long. There is no doubt that it will change your sense of life. However, if you are a minor, you may be protected as a runaway, so it may be necessary to obtain parental consent and carry documents written to that effect.
School can't be helped even if it's a year late. One day you can make up for a year's detours in a long life. If you want to study on top of that, you can go to school; if not, find a job that suits you.