It's Hard to Watch Kids

Thank you for your question.
I think it's a good idea to pray and treat that child as an adult in the future and that they will support our lives with water, electricity, gas, clothes, ingredients, housing, trains, buses, taxis, deliveries, televisions, internet, and much more. Also, I think it's a good idea to treat those parents with gratitude for having given birth to and raised such children.

I was like, “What's your favorite animal?” I actually don't like being asked that. I don't like animals, so I haven't thought they were cute for a long time, much less understand the desire to keep them. However, if you answer “I don't like it,” people who love animals will look “unbelievable.” Having to make excuses again there is bothersome, so I don't like this topic.

I think my feelings for children are the same. What we think we “like” or “don't like” is not something that can be explained logically, and it is natural that each person has different values. Nevertheless, I think there are quite a few people who have imposed common sense on society, and the pressure to “do this” makes it difficult for them to live.

Buddhism was originally based on monasticism. Family creates suffering and attachment. Raising children is a wonderful thing, but that does not mean that it is the correct answer, and Buddhism explains how to keep an appropriate distance.

I hope you can understand that feeling even a little bit and that it will be an opportunity for you to find a different point of view. Buddhist values are recommended because they are not bound by common sense. Please try learning a little bit with books etc.

The grass next door looks blue.
People (families) who are married and have children may seem happy, and women raising children may appear to be splendid and superior.

I think people who have things they don't have, people who have done things they can't experience, and people who are able to do things that they think would be very difficult for them are amazing. That's why I feel like I'm no good at it...

However, people have various concerns, and there are also things they are unsuitable for. Living the same way as those around you isn't the right answer either.

You should decide your own life.
While being stimulated by people around you that are amazing, you don't need to be depressed about that compared to yourself.

There is a saying, “I've heard that it's painful because they have an instinct that makes you want to raise and protect children,” but... that's not the case with all women.
Do you actually feel that way? Kids aren't good at it, right?

If you want to interact with children even though you are not good at it and don't want to raise them, there are also various volunteers involved with children, so it would be nice if you treated them the way you want.

It's good to live the way you want, even if you don't compare yourself to someone who lives a different way of life from your own. That's because it would be nice if you were to paint your life.

People who grew up interacting with younger children due to younger siblings, relatives, neighborhood relationships, etc. are more likely to fall in love with children. (Being interested in jobs such as childcare, etc.)
People who grew up dealing with aging in the same way are more likely to be interested in nursing care work, so they will be favorable to the elderly.
(The above pattern is common among my relatives.)
It's a very normal phenomenon where you become good at what you're used to and remain weak at what you're unfamiliar with, so there's no need to particularly despise yourself, and conversely, you don't need to take too much pride in your character, saying “I hate children.”
There is a cause and there is an effect, and if you change the cause, there is a possibility that the result will change, that's all.
It's an age where interaction with people of different ages, such as neighborhood relationships, is scarce due to the declining birthrate, so the number of people who don't like children may be increasing.
It's not your personal problem, I think it's the fault of the times and society, so please don't blame yourself.
On the other hand, if there is a small trigger, there is a possibility that children will get used to it, so it might be better not to keep the doors to your heart and head closed.