I want to start my life over and get back together

It's been six months since I broke up with him.
I've always wanted to talk to him, but I've tried not to contact him, but since he liked me on SNS a while ago, I sent a light message about a month and a half ago, but it's still unread.

I wrote the details in the previous question, but he was a very sincere and kind person, and I were on very good terms with him and we had been in a relationship for 3 years, but I hurt him because I was too jealous.
After getting into a fight due to the accumulation up until now, he told me that you're not bad at all, and that you actually don't want to break up and that you love him because of his regrets and regrets, but now he wants to focus on his dreams alone.
He seems to have wanted to go to the city for a long time, and he almost feels crushed by anxiety when he thinks that he will eventually go far away.
He always told me he'd live together, but it's a short distance, and I regret not being able to step in without the courage to step in and make a decision.
If he were to say the same thing now, I would make an effort to live my life anywhere without hesitation.

I always regretted and reflected on the fact that I had a fight with him and then I swore in my heart that I should never let this kind of feeling hit on people for the rest of my life.
Recently, I've been concentrating on my hobbies and activities to think positively about fun things so as not to think too much about him.
But when I suddenly think about him, all these fun memories come back to life and my heart tightens.
It makes me wonder where the kind words he said to me have gone, and if he has forgotten me.
Even though it's already spring, I feel like I've been left behind by the winter season all this time.

I want to wait until he opens up his heart again, even if it takes time.
I would appreciate it if you could refrain from making opinions such as that it is better to give up.
At the end, they said they loved it, but it's hard not to get a reply while it's unread, and it makes me think negatively that there won't be any replies for a long time.
What on earth should I do?
How can I get him to open up again? Will they open up again someday and start over?
No matter what, I want to go back to when I was just being on good terms with him peacefully and having fun like before. I want to cherish him even more than before and give him lots of happiness. I just want one more chance. Please help. Please give me hope

4 Zen Responses

While spending a peaceful time

I read it.
I read that you're still thinking about that person. I don't know the details about you or that person, but it really conveys your feelings. I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.
There are times when you think so, and that person may think of you.
Specifically, I don't know what kind of situation that person is currently living in every day, but maybe they are working hard every day because they want to make their dreams come true. Maybe that's what I want to focus on.
So maybe they won't contact you.
Also, as time passes, that person's situation and feelings may change.
So it might be a good idea to wait a bit calmly. Maybe they'll get in touch with you at some point.
First, let's live your own life peacefully.
I sincerely pray that you will be able to spend your future with peace of mind, and that you will be able to respect each other and live a compassionate, and friendly life with your loved ones.
Please let me know how you feel again, and I look forward to seeing you.

We have no choice but to wait and wait for him. I hope you can watch your growth too

If that's the case, I have no choice but to wait and wait for him to change.

I wonder if something has changed for you since then. It would be nice if people around me could see my growth, not just the feeling that I wanted to change.
Being connected via SNS is also an opportunity. because it's the way to reach him. There are still individual messages, and it seems like you're desperately chasing them, and it might be tough for him.
I've talked about it before, but rather than being chased, I feel comfortable, and I'm looking for someone who has a good influence so that we can enhance each other together, and I want to meet them.

I don't think he can get his words out of my head, and I want to believe the words he says he likes. But if it's true, it means we didn't need to break up, so I think those words put growth into you.

First, let's rejoice in being connected via SNS. And don't be impatient and work hard to step up yourself. Then I think the impression you give him will be different.

Become an entity that is wanted and cannot be disliked

The first thing to do is create an opportunity for him to think that it's okay for him to meet you just one more time.
On top of that, it makes him think you're number one for him, and if it makes him think that you can stay together for a long time (I don't like it), there will be a chance to get back together.
For example, I'm afraid it's a sloppy method, but “I just want to have sex one more time.” such as saying.
There is also a possibility that he doesn't feel bad about being wanted as a man.
However, even if he were to meet up with that, if they were to get back together right away, it would feel “deceived” for him, so they put up with that and somehow settle down once in a while into a relationship where “it's OK to contact them once in a while as friends.”
After that, they patiently hang out as friends.
In the meantime, he might have another lover.
However, he doesn't immediately reveal his jealousy and waits for him to be dumped by that lover or that he finds you more attractive than his new lover.
That might be my last chance.
So if he still chooses a new lover or tries to find a different lover, then it would be better to give up already.

My partner is an incarnation of Kannon Bosatsu

Shinran Shonin was the first monk to officially get married.

Buddhism basically prohibits romance. Love brings all kinds of suffering, and it is very difficult to resolve it. Well, trying to keep a distance from love is a Buddhist way of thinking.

Shinran Shonin sought a way to be saved while suffering in love, and faced Buddhism while actually getting married and raising children.
Her wife was Eshinni, and although Shinran Shonin and Eshinni didn't speak directly to each other, it seems that they thought their partner was an incarnation of Kannon Bosatsu.

There are fun times and hard times in love. However, both of these are very important life lessons for us.
From the written point of view, he has carefully faced his own heart, and it seems that he is seriously considering his relationship. First, put your hands together and thank them for your relationship so far, then try to relax a little bit. I'm sure you'll have precious memories up until now, and you'll also be able to see a lot of places where you've grown.

Love is difficult to control, but relationships naturally lead to relationships. Try slowly and let the flow go. I'm rooting for you (^^)

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