When you can't stand the ascetic practices of this world

Now is the season for cherry blossoms to bloom, are they blooming there too?
Cherry blossoms accumulate strength throughout the year and bloom beautifully in spring, albeit for a short time.
It's similar to us.
There are also fun things to do after days of anxiety and hardship.
So when you're anxious or depressed, please stay quiet and at rest.
You don't have to force yourself to do activities.
You don't have to be able to adapt to the people around you.
Please walk at your own pace.
Well, illness is something that no one can avoid.
The Buddha said, “Illness is a teacher, and a hospital room is a dojo.”
There is much to learn from illness.
It is a good opportunity to study physical and mental mechanisms and medical knowledge.
You will be able to understand the feelings and situations of people with illnesses.
You can learn the importance of connections with people such as doctors, nurses, counselors, and friends who help you.
You can grow as a human being through these.
I think you'll be a more inclusive and engaging person.
So please live your life with hope.
There is a question about what will happen if you can't stand the training of this world, but if you endure it to the extent you can endure it, you can stop any further training.
That's because it's important not to overdo it.
I don't know what you feel is ascetic practice, but please do as far as you can. Even if it's not on a 100 point scale, almost everything in the world can be solved with 60 to 70 points.

In the Jodo sect, it is explained that anyone who wishes to pass away (reincarnate) in the Pure Land of Paradise by saying (say) Nanmu Amida Buddha and Nembutsu (reincarnate) in the Pure Land of Paradise can pass away in the Pure Land of Paradise with the power of Amida, no matter what kind of villain or sinner, that person will be picked up when that person dies, and that they can pass away in the Pure Land of Paradise.
So, while thinking “I want to pass away in paradise”
Namu Amidabu Namu Amidabu
Let's hum Nembutsu to your favorite rhythm, and let's first confirm Ozei Gokuraku (happy ending of life).
If you do that, you can pass away even if you endure the suffering of this world or not, so there is no problem.
Furthermore, Buddha explained that living things always suffer.
Pain, dissatisfaction, and homework to deal with come moment by moment, and once one is over, the next suffering comes again.
The suffering never goes away; it just changes its shape.
That is the reality of natural living things, so we have no choice but to give up on it, saying “the world is like that.”
Each person has a different shape, but there is no shortage of pain and dissatisfaction.

It's as if you're in the dark right now, and even if you don't have any hope, the Buddha is illuminating to save you. I guess the fog of depression has covered you...

Even though you've gone all the way to the hospital, I think it would be very uneasy and scary to think about the future when you think about the future when you think about the future.

But the Buddha won't abandon him. There are so many people around you who will support you so that the fog clears up. There are various types of medicines, and the one that is right for you should always be examined thoroughly by a doctor, so let's trust them.
The day will come when you can really feel the Buddha's light.

You must be tired from going to school. Please praise yourself. You're doing your best. It's fine as it is now. You don't have to overdo it. Also, come take a day off at Hasunoha or a temple. You're not alone. I'm living with everyone. That's because they won't be left behind. You won't lose what you've built up. People around me also understand. So it's fine. Let's clear the fog together at your own pace.

If you look at mental illness from a Buddhist perspective, I think the cause is excessive self-consciousness.
I think it's probably because they are too arrogant in Buddhist terms.
Arrogance is when you compare yourself to others and become complacent or depressed, and in the case of a state of mania, in terms of Buddhism, you feel that you are superior to others and can do anything, and you misunderstand and work hard beyond your abilities; in a state of depression, you assume that you are a bad person, and you are unable to move your mind and body. Both are in a state where their sense of self is too strong, they compare themselves too much with others and those around them, and things don't go well.
Self-consciousness (ignorance in Buddhist) is a source of affliction that is easily expressed in greed and anger. The root of the problem, like what I want or what I don't like, is ultimately a sense of who I am, a feeling of comparing myself to others. Self-consciousness is a state where 100% of the energy of the mind cannot be used and is wasted due to friction in terms of electricity or physics. Greed and anger are signs of that.
In Buddhism, even medicine blurs reality (makes you not feel pain), so I don't really recommend it, especially if you have a mental illness. When my heart is depressed, I think it's okay to just face my heart, stop comparing myself to others or assuming that it's useless, and start where I am now.
Healing one's own heart with one's own heart seems easy, but in reality, I also think it's difficult because I have to change my own mind.
I thought there would be no harm in knowing the heart, or rather the trick of self or arrogance, so I answered. I hope you feel at ease.