I wonder if I can't live on enthusiasm and passion alone.

You are wonderful as you continue to be involved in the development of people without changing, without discipline, and without giving up.
You are wonderful when you have something important to protect.
It's wonderful that you recognize that being involved in people's growth is your role.
You're amazing because you're only taking on challenges.
It's wonderful that you are reluctantly living while stepping on the accelerator and brake at the same time.
You've never changed, and you're amazing.
There's absolutely no need to humiliate yourself.
Results may not be immediate.
People who have left the nest may not be appreciated outwardly.
Still, if you continue to live with enthusiasm and passion, you are more wonderful than anyone else.
For those of you, I would like to send the words of Shakyamuni.
“A saint who walks alone and never neglects his heart is not moved by condemnation and praise, is like a lion who is not surprised by sound, like a wind that cannot be caught in a net, like a lotus that is not polluted by water, someone who leads others without being led by others — all wise men know that he is (a saint).”

　Good evening. I read your consultation.
Up to this point, I have continued to be involved in human growth “without change, without discipline, and without giving up.” I feel the strength of not losing my sincerity even when I am in solitude.
First, let's talk about results. “If you have passion, you'll be rewarded” is a beautiful phrase, but in reality, results are due to causation, not just your “cause.” Flowers bloom only when the environment and surroundings are in place. So it's not that our efforts up until now have been in vain. The fact that you have been involved with people in good faith, not just for money, is already a precious factor.
However, “if you have passion!” There are also stages in the feeling of believing. When you're young, simply being passionate has its own meaning, but now that your life is about to turn around, I think it's time to think about “where the environment is right for me now.” The feeling of stepping on the accelerator and brake at the same time can also be read as a sign of that turning point.
So how about “letting go”? Letting go does not mean stopping creating causes. Rather, it's about “not continuing to be attached to the same cause.” Continue to create new causes by changing environments and relationships. There is a difference between giving up and devising ideas. The experiences and lessons you have learned up until now are yours.
More specifically, “changing places” is one way. It doesn't necessarily mean just a job change. It also includes taking a step forward into places involved in human growth outside of the company, such as local activities and places of learning. If a new relationship is added, a different flower will bloom due to your cause. Instead of rushing for results, try focusing on expanding your horizons.
That phrase you say “I have no talent” is actually the opposite of sincerity. Rather than the presence or absence of talent, the way you are living reluctantly now should be a support for others. Being able to write in this way here is itself proof of your ability to get involved with people.
Autumn is a season that is easy to evoke sentimentality. Please keep on creating the next cause while laughing lightly, “Maybe it's because of autumn.”

First of all, I quietly admire you for coming back here so many times to speak. The tiredness and hesitation of putting all my heart into nurturing is often conveyed.

In terms of Buddhism, your act of “nurturing” itself is sowing good seeds. However, “whether or not it will come to fruition” depends on relationships (). The growth of others requires power and the effects of time, and measuring yourself by linking everything to results wears out the mind. So it's not “not being rewarded = meaningless.” It's just that rewards don't always come back in a visible form.

Here are a few practical landing ideas. It helps you adjust the way you deal with each other while reducing fatigue.

Clearly state the purpose
Write “What do you want to achieve by raising this person” in short. Instead of results (promotion/independence), it is reduced to specific actions (habituation/basic skills) provided by you.

Separate expectations from time (timebox)
“I will be the main supporter for the past six months. If you separate it with “we'll evaluate your progress together in six months,” you can prevent endless dedication.

Create delegation and separation of responsibilities
Clarify the role (teaching/guiding) of the nurturing side and the responsibility (practice/report) of the nurturing side. Delegate small tasks and increase the experience you “let” your opponent have.

Collect a small “sense of reward”
I encourage myself by not only looking at big successes, but also by recording small changes where one habit has been established and mistakes have been reduced by one.

Get a third person's perspective
When you receive supervision from a mentor, colleague, or other person, you can see “the method is accurate” and “whether the role is biased.”

Think about a ceremony to let go
If you do a short ceremony (declaring in words, exchanging small documents) when touching the baton, it will be easier to establish a psychological break.

Don't forget to nourish yourself
Rest, talk to peers, and move your body. Make compassion meditation (“be at peace” for yourself too) on a daily basis.

Lastly
Your efforts are not in vain. Seen through the eyes of the Buddha, good deeds become “karma (work)” as they are, and eventually they may come around. However, Buddhism also preaches “the release of obsession.” Please let go of your fixation on results for a moment and value the quality of the act itself and “your current health.”
Gassho

I read it.
I read that you are lost and worried about various things and are very confused about what to do. I don't know the details about you, but I can tell you that you are very worried. I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.

I don't know the specific situation, but I think what you're saying is a very good thing, and I feel like it's right.

Why don't you take a slow breath for now, take a slow breath, then slowly exhale. You are living properly even now.

Please try relaxing and calmly, take care of both your mind and body, and stop while taking a leisurely breath.

I think it's okay to take a little rest.

Then take a look at your feet, look at what's in front of you and around you, and slowly stare at the people around you.

Let's take a leisurely look around without being in a hurry.

Let's look and appreciate ourselves and the people around us, our states, situations, feelings, and thoughts before making a decision.

Also, think carefully about what is desirable and whether what you do is good for you and the people around you, and listen to opinions from people around you.

I sincerely pray that you and everyone will be guided in a good way and that you will be able to live a healthy and rich life from the bottom of your heart, and that you will be able to walk steadily through a fulfilling life while being blessed with various relationships amidst various encounters.
And I wholeheartedly support you. We wholeheartedly agree