I don't understand the meaning of living

Right now, nothing is available, and you may be filled with a sense of hopelessness. However, if you don't take action from the current state, it's hard to notice changes.
When it comes to love, it is probably necessary to make an effort to increase one's own attractiveness so that everyone is attracted to attractive people, and by refining not only the external appearance, but also the inner world, showing positive motivation, and connecting with society through learning and exchange, opportunities for encounters will also increase.

This is probably the result of people who have partners and people who are blessed with relationships taking actions that cannot be seen from those around them.

Anxiety about not being able to see the future leads to mental instability. Let's try to envision a brighter future as possible. Also, why don't you trust your doctor and continue treatment for recovery?

I felt that the feeling that you had stumbled upon your life, that people who made you unhappy would catch your eye, and that you were worried about mounts from your surroundings had created a sense of “not being satisfied.”

One thing I want to say
It's not about “people with good partners become happy”
“Happy people get good partners”
the order is reversed

The first step is for you to make yourself happy.
For example, if you're inviting someone to do business, you should choose someone who has what they can have and who makes a greater profit by combining it with what you have over someone who has abilities and confidence.
Even if you're looking for a friend, it's not someone you have to entertain, but someone who you really enjoy, even on your own, should be more fun to be with.

And yet, as soon as it became love
“Will you make me happy?”
“I'll make you happy”
Requests and gifts are getting bigger.

First, let's be happy on our own.
Happiness is the “self-recognition of the soul.”
If you say “I'm happy,” I'm happy,
If I say “I'm unhappy,” I'm unhappy

This is because humans are inherently lame,
Since we are bound by everything: time, society, country, earth, etc.
If you want to find it yourself,
Whether it's a millionaire or a beautiful woman from a strange country, you can find misfortune,
Whether you're an orphan or a sick person, happiness can be found.

Actually, you're also finding happiness by being “blessed with people,” aren't you?
When “I was more popular than those around me when I was young,” they had happiness first, and they probably weren't trying to be popular for happiness.

You don't need changes in your environment to be happy.
You have no choice but to change.
And after you change, your environment changes accordingly.

Put your hands on the Buddha in your heart, appreciate life, and feel happy that there is life
It will definitely change your life.

Ahchi-sama

I think what you lack is healing and comfort.
I think that if you are working hard, your mental energy has been exhausted.
So you can seek more healing. You can rest your body more.
You can do what you love more. You can do something that makes you feel more secure.
There's no rush to live.
You are amazing just the way you are.
Why don't you seek safety, security, healing, peace of mind, and peace of mind where you can stay as you are? Try to find that feeling of warmth flowing into your heart.
It doesn't matter if it's meditation, going to a hot spring, or something you like or a hobby. Try to think that you like yourself.
You will begin to accumulate positive energy in your mind.
Please refer to it.

I read it.
I read that you are feeling lonely right now and are feeling very lonely and painful.
People around you are dating, getting married, having children, and buying houses, and you are very envious. The people around you are changing steadily and becoming happier, and you feel like you're the only one left behind. It's become so hard and difficult at work, and you're already exhausted.
Recently, I haven't been able to sleep easily, and I'm in a very difficult situation because I've taken a lot of medicine.
You don't know what to do in such a situation and want help. I also sincerely understand your worries and suffering.
First, please know that you are never alone. You have relationships with us here too, and you are always protected by the Buddha, gods, and ancestors.
You are a very important person. You may not notice it, but there are people who really care about you. Anytime, anywhere, and in any situation, you are always being watched over by someone and are blessed with a relationship.
Please take good care of yourself from the bottom of your heart and take a good rest. Please enjoy something fresh and gentle on your body, slowly drink relaxing teas and herbal teas, then take a leisurely bath, lie down, and sleep slowly. They may wake up many times, but even so, please take care of your body and let them rest slowly. And please nourish your energy.
Also, let's ask specialists and counselors to talk to us and give advice as appropriate.
Never overdo it and let's recover little by little while taking care of your body.
If possible, try showing up in various places little by little, and participate in local club activities, volunteer activities, and various events. Also, please interact with all kinds of people. I think there will also be wonderful encounters in unexpected places.
I sincerely pray that you will be able to take good care of your mind and body from now on, rest and recover well, meet and deepen relationships with various wonderful people, and live a healthy, peaceful, and fulfilling life every day. And I will support you from the bottom of my heart.

It seems that your concerns can be summed up in the opening phrase “I'm the only one who doesn't have a boyfriend even though people around me are getting married and having children more and more.”
Resolving this issue will surely reduce work pressure and physical stress.
It is said that there is only one single woman like you in your workplace, and there are women like that in the world.
I think I was really popular when I was young, but for some reason I'm still single.
It seems that the main cause is the person's arrogance that there is no need to be impatient and that they were not blessed with the timing of the encounter.
From a man's point of view, even if they want to call out to such a woman, it seems like they are being pressured to decide whether or not to get married from the beginning, and they hesitate.
Well, what you need to do to improve all of your situations right now is to take the plunge and concentrate on marriage hunting.
If there are no encounters at work, there is no choice but to actively seek many encounters elsewhere.
If you just wait, you won't get anything.
Don't worry about pretending, and sometimes it's important to let go of your pride.
Matching apps may be easy, but we recommend using marriage agencies in order not to waste any more time by drawing mislots.
I myself don't think marriage is the only purpose of life, but since it weighs this much on your heart, let's make marriage hunting a success at any cost.
I'm praying from Hasunoha that you can finish your goals as soon as possible with a real partner who makes you happy.