I don't feel like I can live

Nice to meet you. My name is Hirofumi (Kobun).

Esu-san's
I heard the feeling that “I'm not suited to live.”

You also came to such a conclusion by calmly thinking about your own situation.

“But as a matter of fact, I'm not fit to live. After I realized that, I couldn't imagine the future I was living in, even when I became an adult.”

Once you've been encouraged, you can't disguise your own sense of self.
I'm sure Esu-san is looking for someone who can directly answer her weakness and anxiety.

However, there are fewer such places in modern times.

Why do you think?

I think there's a hint in what Asu-san is saying.

“My grades aren't that good either” ← academic ability
“I don't have the mental strength or communication ability to get involved with people”
“I don't have patience either”
“I don't have any physical strength”

All that is being sought is “power,” not “people.”

In other words, it's a “tool (tool).”

These are not Esu-san's responsibility.

That's because we adults guide us in that way.
You've heard the term “human resources”, right?
What they are looking for is not “humans,” but “materials.”

As a result, it seems that distortions are actually occurring all over society.

There's nothing wrong with these.
Instead, why is society moving with this kind of way of thinking
It's just “for convenience.”
There are more important things.
It is an important period until the teenage years to be taught and learned about this.

I'm sure both the teachers at school and the people at home understand that.
But I'm happy when my child's grades improve, and I feel safe if I have physical strength.

What is important is that Esu-san is asking here right now,
It is a real discipline in itself, and it means that it will be a great force for the future.

The person you are asking is not someone you spend time with on a daily basis; this is a good place or something else. It could be a book or a movie. Travel is good too.

Esu-san's age is a time when the brain develops rapidly again.
The reason we get anxious or think too much is because our brain has grown that much.

We need people like Esu-san.

There's nothing to worry about.

I would appreciate it if you could use it as a reference.

Namu Shakyamuni Buddha Gassho

“I want to be someone who can help at least a little bit”
Isn't it great? It's not easy to say.
Please take good care of that feeling.
I think students who stubbornly continue to be truant are actually mentally stronger than students who go to school every day.
Please continue to rely on your homeroom teacher, parents, friends, school counselors, and children's psychosomatic medicine teachers. You can also take regular tests at the infirmary, so please take them.
As for studying, read your own textbooks and put them together in your own notebook, and ask your parents, homeroom teachers, friends, cram school, etc. about what you don't understand.
Let's put the future aside and do what we can do now at our own pace. Also, it's fine indoors, so exercise moderately, such as clamping when watching a smartphone, or slowly squatting or kneading your legs when watching TV.

First of all, I was amazed by your writing skills.
Accurate wording, expressive power, and well-organized structure.
I really don't think it was a sentence written by a middle school student.
I saw him as quite a reader.
You're humble that you don't have any abilities, but you can have great confidence when it comes to writing sentences.
Now, it means you can't imagine your future, but as the teachers said, don't be impatient and go slowly.
The speed of growth varies from person to person.
There's no need to rush things.
It's good to go to high school, and good not to go.
If you live a long time, you will acquire mental strength, communication skills, and patience over time.
As a monk, I was impressed by your words, “I want to be a person who can be at least a little useful.”
Take time to find something you're obsessed with (and great if it works for the world).

Thank you for your consultation, Esu-sama.

It's not your fault that you think, “I don't feel like I can live, I don't understand the meaning I was born.” You're not bad, and you're not responsible.
If it's a family environment like a profile, everyone will avoid relationships.
But people can change. I think we can change in many ways, but what I want you to be particularly aware of is to focus on others.
Right now, it's about myself, and it seems like my heart is covered by it because I think “I don't feel like I can live,” but little by little every day is fine, so let's hope for happiness for others.
“May Mr. 00 be happy
May 00-san's worries and suffering go away
May Mr. 00 be full of joy
May Mr. 00 be at peace.”
Please just pray every day. Please pray by imagining that person being right in front of you. (Among the 00, choose someone close to whom you can pray easily)
Also, if you see someone else smiling at something, be aware of it and rejoice together.
Please ignore jealousy and jealousy, and be brave and innocent, and happy to empathize with them together.
Put yourself aside, cherish this moment, and pray for others.
Prayers always come through.
With this, you can cultivate “kindness” and “compassion” more than they are now, and eventually you will be saved from avoidance.
And I pray even more
“May I be happy. May my worries and suffering go away. May joy overflow to me. May I be at peace.”
In this way, people take a step forward.
Please refer to it.