About how to have a heart in the midst of illness anxiety

　Good evening. I don't know what numbers were bad, but if you are told that there is a possibility of illness, you should steer your life in the direction of improving it.
Anything before the results come out is something that raises anxiety. When it comes to thorough inspection, I can also imagine that it is a no-brainer.
However, rather than “just waiting,” isn't it possible to make it a time to think about “what can be done?”
Specifically, if, for example, cholesterol may be high, stop taking ribs and focus on fish. If your sleep quality seems poor, use a snoring recording app or stop using your smartphone before going to sleep.
If the results come out, it does not become a disease; it means that it becomes clear, so they think that something may already be underway, and take preventive action.
Even if your feelings don't change until results come out, isn't it possible to start taking measures already? I understand that “not being able to even think about what to enjoy in the future” is painful, but what is necessary is “what to keep in mind in your life now.”
That way, by starting to do things quickly, no matter which result you get, your regrets should decrease. There's nothing “useless even if you do it now,” and I think we should focus on reducing “not doing it.”

That bothers me, doesn't it? It's easy to just think about negative things.
However, if it is follow-up, there is no urgency, and there are regular checkups, so you can rest assured.

I also have symptoms of follow-up care. I was surprised at first, and I asked the doctor a lot of questions. When I looked it up myself, I was scared that only bad progress came up on the internet. Therefore, regular checkups and communication with doctors are important. That leads to peace of mind, doesn't it? The condition of this has not changed for about 3 years, and follow-up has been ongoing for a long time.

My body is a part of me. Just like being in a bad mood or having various conditions, I think my symptoms are part of me. So rather than think of it as a foreign object, I'm going to love you because it's a part of me. “Don't do anything bad. We try to go out with each other while being in a good mood, saying, “Please be a good kid.”
Also, I spend my daily life carefully so that I can notice minor changes.

You, too, should look at yourself while following your doctor's advice.
I'm sure it'll be fine.

I read it.
I read that you live a very anxious everyday life that you might be sick. I don't know the details of your condition, but I understand your anxiety and worries very well. I sincerely understand your painful feelings.
Well, I'm so worried that I can't even make plans for the future.

I also had a re-examination the day before yesterday, and I'm going to the hospital next week to hear the results. I originally had various illnesses, so when I underwent a medical examination, I almost got re-examined. Therefore, recently I have been undergoing examinations and treatment while thinking that it is unavoidable, and if necessary, I also undergo surgery.

It is reasonable for you to think so, but it is very important that you do a thorough inspection and confirm it. If it's a disease, let's treat it. That's because you're going to live well from now on. Illness exists if you are alive. And it would be nice if we dealt with it firmly. In the first place, our lives were given.
Be sure to talk about your uneasy feelings with your family, doctors, nurses, and medical institutions, and ask them to give you appropriate advice.

I think it's okay to make plans for the future. I also expect to continue treatment, and I am making plans for the future and next year. So let's talk about it and get the people involved to understand it.

I sincerely pray to the Buddha, God, and your ancestors so that you can live every day with peace of mind and health, and that you will be able to have a thorough examination and proper treatment if necessary.
Please let us know your thoughts again, and we look forward to hearing from the bottom of our hearts.

If you get unexpected results during a medical examination, you may feel depressed about something unexpected. Even when you think about the future, aren't you feeling sad because you don't have hope?
Please be kind to yourself. As there is a saying that mind and body are the same, the state of the body also changes depending on how you hold your mind. At times like this, let's calm down quietly, breathe slowly, and wait for the storm to pass.
Let's watch the sunrise and sunset, and admire the flowers. It will make you feel better.
Read your favorite poem or novel, and enjoy a cup of tea.
I pray that you will regain your health.

People are far more exhausted by an ambiguous state of “not knowing what's going to happen” than confirmed grief.
In Buddhism, this is called “the darkness of ignorance.” Right now, you're desperately continuing to breathe in that darkness.

1. It's not weak, it's just “scary”
Health-related anxiety can easily make anyone's mind smaller.
The only reason I can't stop crying during work is that my body honestly reacts to being “scared.”

It's not weakness. Rather, it is proof that they are trying to deal with it properly.

2. Follow-up observation = nothing has been decided yet
The term follow-up sounds heavy, but it is a state where it is neither black nor white.

It is a follow-up observation only because the doctor has determined that “there is no need to hurry.”

Nothing is lost in your present future yet.
My heart is just staring at the worst.

3. Not being able to envision the future is a natural reaction
As anxiety intensifies, the door to the future naturally closes.
This is a defensive response to protect the heart.

What is important at that time is the attitude of “living only for today.”

・Today I'm going to eat something I like
・Today, I'm going to take a short walk
・If I can sleep today, I'll pass
・Is it OK to cry today

Buddhism's “one day for one life.” Today is all I need for today.

4. The reason you can't talk to your parents isn't because you don't have love
The thought “I might be scolded if I cry” is proof that you feel “I don't want to get hurt any more.”

You don't have to blame yourself for not being able to talk to your parents.
People can only show their weakness in places where they feel safe.

You're here, and you've already taken that step.

5. “Those who are depressed will be prepared” is a misunderstanding
Anticipating sorrow won't prepare you for the future.
Rather, my mind gets tired, and it takes away extra strength to face up when treatment is needed.
What you need is not to “get depressed,” but to leave room for your mind and physical strength.

6. Lastly
Even though they are drunk with anxiety, they are asking for help by putting it into words like this.
This is a sure sign that you are “trying to live.”

You don't have to live in the future one month from now.
Please quietly accumulate today.
・Hot drinks
・Favorite scent
・I can't force myself to cheer up on days when I want to cry
・Write “scary”

Your future is not an uneasy imagination; it appears beyond the accumulation of those of you who have lived today.

Please cherish today.
Gassho