While having a developmental disability that makes it difficult to live

Nice to meet you. It's called the monk's hearing method.

I sincerely understand that you have faced discrimination and painful feelings for so many years. How painful it must have been. Developmental traits aren't your flaws, they're just your personality. First, please don't blame “you just the way you are.”

We all live in anxiety. You're not alone in your anxiety about work, relationships, and an uncertain future. A heart that relies on fortune telling is an expression of a desperate desire to “feel safe.” However, it would not be a good idea to rely too much on the “superstition” of fortune telling.

The teachings of Shinshu do not fix such an unstable self, but rather make me realize that my current self is already in the light of Amida's wish to “be saved.”

Amida's Hikari also accepts your ASD and ADHD characteristics as they are. Discrimination and painful experiences can make you suffer, but at the same time, you should also develop a deep sense of kindness in understanding people's pain.

Let's leave everything, our uneasy heart and our unreliable self, to Amida, and live every day with care today in the midst of a wish called out, “It's okay.” This is the path leading to true peace of mind.

A “chosen person” may be a good person who is generally recognized by others, but there is no need to aim for such a person. You can be “just who you are.” Affirm yourself and live with confidence.

Worship
Engiji Temple Shakujo

Thank you for your question.

It showed me how hard they are living.

There's nothing wrong with that, is there?

If there is only one
I hope you can find a place where you can live as you are.

It would be nice if that was a job
There will be many things going on.
But that's the same for me.

I will live my life in it.

That's because we live by choosing as humans.

It is natural that there are many things.

So rather than worrying about the future that might not come
Let's take a look now.

Why is that good.
Is there anything that moves your heart?

Let's look at the present.

There must be something exciting.
Anything is fine.

Gassho

I read it.
I read your concerns. You're worried about the future because you think things aren't going well for you, and you're worried that things won't go well with others. I don't know the details about you, but it conveys your painful feelings. I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.
Many people are worried, lost, and suffering just like you are worried. Life is about twists and turns, big and small, worrying and lost.
No one knows what your life will be like in the future, but even so, you will continue to live blessed with many relationships.
You've already been chosen and are living. As a human being, you have been born and have lived among many blessings, and so is this.
When you feel lost or worried, please talk to many people about your thoughts.

You may not know the answer right now, but there are times when you can see it by accident, and you are paving the way while receiving advice, help, and guidance from many people.

I sincerely pray that you will continue to be blessed with wonderful encounters and relationships and that you will be able to share your thoughts with many people and live a rich and fulfilling life from the bottom of your heart. And I wholeheartedly support you.