anthropophobia

What you think is the result.
Look at the other person honestly and treat them with a smile. I'll call out if I'm in trouble.

I was talking about just that on my internet radio called Voicy the other day.
I'll post a link, so please listen and take a look if you like.

https://r.voicy.jp/poKM5Wv0KNQ

When I asked listeners about people who made a good impression on them,
A person who can say hello
An honest person
humble person
A person who praises
...

etc. were going up.
Judges come later, so when I look at people a lot, I think what I thought would be voicing them or putting them into action.
That's because it becomes disgusting when the calculation works.

I feel that I'm inferior to others. I wonder if there was any reason why I lost my confidence?

I also have complexes, and I feel admiration, or rather envy, for people who have things I don't have.

However, everyone is probably making invisible hardships and efforts. Even though we all have the power to shine, there are times when we don't notice it ourselves or turn our eyes on others. And others always set the standard and evaluate “me.” That's why the eyes around you may be scared, saying “I am...”

I try to value “I am me” because I can't listen to each and every one of them, but even though everyone is aware of others, they can't replace their partner.

I have complexes, so I'm worried about complexes, but I want to at least cherish and love them where I can. Because all of them are me. I think I have to go out with me like that.

You think you're inferior, and you're living a quasi-withdrawn lifestyle. I think that's fine, and if you want to change the situation, love them even if you want to change the situation.

Even if people around you don't care about you, if your side cares, the situation won't change no matter what you do. Even if it doesn't change, you're who you are, so you have to fall in love with who you are.

Why don't you do something that gives you confidence? Isn't it okay to start by imitating someone else. That might make you feel more confident, too.

Nice to meet you. It's called the monk's hearing method.
You've worked hard to survive until today amid the storm of anxiety and fear that sweeps through in your heart every day. I sincerely apologize for your suffering.

From a Buddhist point of view, the feeling that you are “inferior to others” that you feel is one of the afflictions of “despicability (indecency).” “Arrogance” is a spirit of comparison, but in fact, despising oneself is also born from a strong obsession with “I (),” which compares oneself to others. However, in the light of Buddha's mercy, there is no boundary between superiority and inferiority in this world.

Just as a lotus flower that takes root in the mud simply blossoms innocently without being stained with mud, your existence also has “one and only preciousness” from the beginning that exceeds comparison with others. There's no need to blame yourself for being “pathetic” for not being able to go where you want to go. It's proof that your heart is working hard to protect you right now.

First, why don't you spend your time “knowing enough” without asking for a big step? Please take good care of the small steps taken for granted, such as “I was able to open the window today” and “I was able to open the front door and go outside.” If you feel impatient, put your hands together quietly and just focus your attention on the fact that you are “living here and now.”

No matter how small your stride is, the Buddha is always walking next to it. You can rely on that Buddha. Little by little without being impatient as possible. Once you are able to affirm yourself and gain confidence, I think “interpersonal fear” will naturally subside.

Worship
Engiji Temple Shakujo

Thank you for your question.

I was curious about the reason.
I had a feeling that something might have been triggered.

Is work about dealing with people?

I'm sure someone will acknowledge it
When someone who loves you comes out
I'm sure Othello will go from white to black and black to white
I felt like it was going to change so fast.

I would be happy if it could be helpful.
Gassho