It's hard for me to leave my job repeatedly for a short period of time

Nice to meet you. It's called the monk's hearing method.
I read it. I left my job twice in six months, and the feeling of being in the dark with no way out is painfully conveyed, saying “why only me.”

I have been providing employment guidance for high school students for many years, and the 3-year turnover rate of high school graduates is over 40%. In the case of university graduates, it's in the 30% range, so about 1 in 3 people left their jobs within 3 years. Based on this situation, it doesn't mean you're special. Seeing that “my classmates around me continue to work properly for the company” makes me feel that “the grass next door is blue.”

Buddhism explains life as “all suffering (all suffering),” that is, “something that doesn't go the way you want it to.” The reason you are suffering right now is not because you are being lazy. My heart screams at the discrepancy between “how we should be (obsession),” where “we should work for a long time as a full-time employee” and “we should walk in the same way as our surroundings,” and reality that cannot be maintained.

First, please acknowledge your own courage in jumping into rough seas twice in a desperate attempt to adapt to society until now. Half a year is definitely not a waste of time. It was a precious training period to learn about your own characteristics and what you find unbearable.

If you think of life as a “one-way street,” stopping seems like dropping out. However, from a Buddhist point of view, life is a series of “dots.” Don't be bound by past failures, don't be frightened by anxiety about the future, and first take “surviving today's day quietly” as your greatest merit.

Now is not the time to work up your energy. If the muddy water also stands still, it will eventually clear and you will be able to see the bottom. You can just sit in the mud without stirring around in the mud until your mind calms down.

I understand the feeling of being impatient, but don't deny yourself, don't be in too much of a hurry, and take your time searching for a job that suits you. I think if you give yourself some leeway in your mind, the path will surely open up.

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Engiji Temple Shakujo

Thank you for your question.

I'll check the current situation.

Naturally, it was conveyed that the current situation was not desired.

Basically, in Buddhism, it's the idea of causal retribution.

Something happened and it is there now.

Even if you don't understand it now, there are things you might understand someday.

I felt that this experience would surely lead to the future ahead.
(Of course, I don't think it makes any sense, but that's fine)

Life is hard. The Buddha said that it is natural that it is difficult.
That's why I'm happy when something good happens.

You might think there's nothing good
Is that really true?
Isn't there anything underfoot?
Isn't it a happy thing to be able to ask questions like this?

If you think about it, I think you can feel a lot of things.

So what are we going to do now?
What would you like to do?
How do you want to live?

I'm sure this is where the real question is being asked.

Gassho

Getting a job is like drawing lots. If you don't pull it, you won't know if it's an Atari or a loss. If you don't get a job and work, you won't know the real details of the job, the atmosphere of the workplace, or the personalities of your boss/colleagues. You've just been unlucky until now, and you don't have to regret anything.
The point is to keep drawing lots until you win.
However, there are times when a lottery between Atari and loss is drawn. At this time, you may be able to get closer to Atari by devising ways to work, and there are times when you try too hard and get stressed and lost.
For example, when working long hours, securing time to sleep is key. If you sleep 7 hours a day, if there are days when you can only get 5 hours of sleep, the next day you can secure 9 hours of sleep even if you leave early, or go to work 2 hours late even if you use substitute time off. Depending on the type of job, long working hours may continue for several days, but in such cases, it is important to take a nap during lunch breaks or breaks and sleep well for a day at a later date or annual leave.
Also, to my grumpy boss, I said once and for all, “Um, I respect Mr. ○○'s knowledge, experience, and work, but why don't you just stop complaining and being grumpy? I feel so depressed that my work isn't progressing. If I make a mistake at work, it's probably because of ○○-san's grumpiness. Please take responsibility.” You can say as much as that. That's because it's also for ○○-san.
If you work while thinking about how you can adjust your lifestyle and how you can comfortably concentrate on your work, you may be able to see what is good to do.
There are a lot of differences in occupations, workplaces, and people, so don't worry about the past and be brave and pull the line. I hope the next one hits.

Even hard sports such as marathons and boxing, and occupations full of harassment (being hit with a knife by the culprit) by police officers, etc., can be endured by people who like and do it.
In other words, if we can find pleasure and joy in our work, it is humans who can endure long working hours and harassment.
Also, self-employed people work long hours, but since they can work with their own arrangements, they last a long time.
Even if it's a hard job, it's less stressful if you can take a break when you want to take a break on your own.
So, finding fun and joy in work is a long-lasting trick, and if you can advance in a position where you can control your work with your own arrangements, your stress will decrease.
After that, it will be easier to work by improving your own work efficiency and abilities.
For example, let's do training to speed up thinking on a regular basis, such as browsing YouTube and watching at 2x speed.
It would be useful if the speed of thought increased.