I hate my brother and father
I am a family of 4 with my mother, father, and younger brother, but my father has a mild physical disability and can't work, and my younger brother is now in high school.
I hate these two people, and first of all, I understand that my father can't work, but they are very fat, burp, fart, and make a mess during meals, and don't take a bath very often. Also, to be honest, I cannot accept being unfaithful and corrupt as a child, that I see him as a father and that he is connected to this person's blood.
My younger brother doesn't know how to be considerate of others, and he sometimes fights when he goes on a rant at his mother who supports his family. My mom bought juice the other day, do you want to drink it? Just hearing that made them feel grumpy and got into an argument.
I hate those two people. I should just die. However, my mother may be sad then, so I hate it so much that I even think that I should be alone and continue to suffer.
I've heard that anger doesn't last long, but since we're in the same house, I always feel angry somewhere in my heart.
It's hard for me, and I hate hating my family myself. However, I can't forgive my younger brother who rants at my mother, who supports the family alone, and my father who gets dirty without even doing what he can.
What should I do?
Please.