I regret what I did in the old days

Thank you Nori for your consultation.

Who I am today is different from who I am tomorrow.
I'm living my new self moment by moment.
But that doesn't mean I'm abandoning my past responsibilities.
We are responsible.
But I, who updates every day,
In order to eventually fulfill that responsibility well,
They live facing forward.
until that time comes,
I'm living a new self every day.

Whether you regret the past or feel uneasy about the future, it's useless.
However, I am my new self moment by moment
I believe they are updated every day.
You might not notice,
I'm always living my new self.

Now, how would you like to live without any restrictions?
How do you want to live your life as you update every day?
Beyond that, we have a responsibility to fulfill.

I think so.
Please refer to it.
One bow

　Good evening. Somehow I relaxed my mind, and I lost sight of who I should have made up my mind before.
It is said that I “swore” last time, and I think that was good in itself. So, the challenge this time is “can I establish it in my own way of life?” The question is “with what kind of feelings,” but let's recognize that what we are working on this time is “concretization.” The point is “be specific.”
① Put action guidelines into words and externalize them. It means putting it in a visible place. Guidelines are not “don't do,” and it is essential to incorporate them into the style of “do ~.” “Even when I evaluate people's values and actions based on my own values, I accept them first and foremost,” or if they think “I just said it,” they apologize on the spot. Write it out on paper or use it on your smartphone's standby screen.
② Keep a diary or other record. Use one video's worth of time to look back before going to bed. Write in the memo column of the “Calendar” app that you were able to implement the guidelines. It's also a time to look back at the guidelines once every day. It is said that the habit should continue for 100 days, so aim for 100 days.
③ Done! There will also be days like that. It's a good idea to collect it as soon as possible. I also write things like “I apologize tomorrow” on my memo. Completing assignments is also a strengthening of guidelines, so think of it as an opportunity and execute it.
④ Once 100 days have passed, read back the memo together. Reflect on your own actions. To that end, after all, write “If you look back on how much was made according to the guidelines” on the calendar 100 days from now (this might be fine as a reminder).

well... Do you think these can be done? If 100 day increments seem difficult, 30 day increments might be fine.
If you can achieve it... you're already a “person who doesn't hurt people blindly.” Through a self-earned system.
If you don't achieve it... it means that today's regrets are nothing but that. It means it's so close to my throat that I forget it's hot.
However. If symptoms of depression appear, guess “they don't seem to have a good relationship right now,” and try to relieve the symptoms.
If... you can't do it at all, let yourself be devastated by your own mercy. But there's also one last safety net. It's “Namu Amida Buddha” and Nembutsu.
is that me? ... sometimes, “I did it today!” I think so, but there are many days when I do nembutsu. If you don't face your own actions and digest them, you won't be able to welcome tomorrow.

You've noticed your past mistakes, and you feel like your body is being torn apart. However, that deep suffering is proof that you have now grown into a person who can feel the “pain of others” as your own. Truly ruthless people don't regret their past.

Fears such as revenge or harm to your family are shadows (illusions) in your mind created by your own strong sense of guilt. You can't change past facts, but you can break up with your past self. In response to the question “Is it OK to live?” from a Buddhist point of view, I will answer “live as that foolish person.” We are all sad “bonbu (bonbu)” beings who unknowingly hurt someone. Instead of living as a clean and innocent person, living with “sorry” that you are aware of your own sinfulness is the beginning of honesty.

Please don't fill your future life with only “atonement (redemption)” for the past. By not forgetting that pain, I'll be a little bit kinder to someone I meet today. That is the only precious thing you can do right now. Your parents should also want you to live a hard life while carrying your mistakes rather than the way you keep blaming yourself. Because you know suffering, there is always someone you can save. Please raise your face and live with that oath in your heart.

worship
Engiji Temple Shakujo

Making fun of words and actions, making fun of them...

If I were told, my side would be deeply hurt, and I may have been sick for a long time. Maybe they have a grudge against the offender.
The wounds suffered by the victim won't go away.

You've been repenting since 4 years ago, haven't you?
Have you changed since then? I wonder if they've come to be kind to someone or be careful about their actions?

What kind of mentality did you have at that time?
You were when you were being bullied.
I wonder if he looked down on his opponent.
I wonder if they thought they had the upper hand.

There is nothing more foolish than looking at and acting on people based on their superiority or inferiority. It becomes a sense of discrimination.

Regret and do good deeds.
What does that mean?
Please continue to learn while bearing the mistakes of the past.