The person I had an unrequited crush on had a girlfriend

I fell in love with someone who took the same course when I was in my second year of high school, and I've had an unrequited love until now. It's the last school festival for high 3, so I thought it wouldn't matter what happened, so I invited them to take a picture and took a picture. At that time, if that person were Mr. K, Mr. K didn't have a girlfriend, and they weren't really talking friends, but they were the kind of people who could talk a lot if they had a chance to talk.
I was also doing DM, but since I was studying for the entrance exam, I stopped DMs.
I thought I'd go study today, and when I was walking, I found 2 girls from the same school as Mr. K studying together.
I'm glad I wasn't able to get along, and it's tough to find it. It's the entrance exam this weekend, but I only get the feeling that KITZ is serious
I'm having trouble telling this to my best friend or not. My best friend also knows that I liked K, and it is also my best friend who pushed me to take pictures. We've been together in middle and high school, and now they're best friends, but even though we were together in junior high school, we weren't on good terms at all and we didn't like each other, so I couldn't show my weak self, or rather, we've shared a lot of fun things until now and we've talked about our worries, etc., but I don't want to show that I'm weak. And maybe your best friend isn't your best friend? I've been thinking about it. Isn't this your best friend? What should I talk about? Don't we need to talk?
Please tell me

3 Zen Responses

Feelings that were so important that I couldn't show my weakness

Thank you Honnu-san for taking the time to contact us.
In the midst of a very difficult event, you put it into words very well.

You've cherished your long unrequited love in your heart, haven't you?
I don't think it was easy to have the courage to take pictures.

What I saw by chance today must have stuck in my heart strongly.
What's more, it's even more difficult when it's right before the entrance exam.

The feeling that “I wish I hadn't seen it” is also a natural reaction.
I think that's proof that I really thought about it.

You thought about your best friend, and you started to get lost.
I understand the feeling that you don't want to show your weak self.

Sometimes the more important someone is, the more afraid you are to rely on them.
Just because you can't talk doesn't mean your bond is a lie.

Maybe now is the time when we can't afford to talk.
Wouldn't it be better not to force yourself to decide?

If you talk, you don't have to explain everything.
You can just say “it's a little tough right now.”

I don't think leaning on someone is a weakness.
People have hearts they cannot hold alone.

You are heading to the entrance exam with a tough feeling.
Nevertheless, the sight of them trying to move forward is precious.

Please don't carry it on your back alone.
Also, feel free to let me hear your feelings here anytime.

May your steps continue to be quietly supported.

Put all your energy into the exam in front of you for your own future

I saw a shocking scene during the important period just before the entrance exam. It's not unreasonable to be upset. Still, your attitude of trying to break off your relationship with him is very rational and admirable.

Now, as for friends, there's no need to add black and white to the definition of “best friend or not” right now. People's minds and relationships are constantly changing, just like the seasons. The feeling of “not being able to show your weaknesses” is also your unmistakable current heart. Don't be bound by the “best friend should share everything,” and you can prioritize your own honest feelings, saying “I don't want to talk right now.”

Right now, in the midst of a lot of pressure from entrance exams, my mind is more delicate than usual, and my thoughts may be a little confused. It's not too late to face those worries even after the exam is over and your mind has calmed down.

First, put all your energy into the exam in front of you for your own future. “You don't have to say what you don't want to say.” You can leave it as is. I sincerely hope that your efforts will bear fruit.

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What are friends like? Let's be honest about how we feel

It's shocking and sad when someone you have a crush on has a lover. It's painful just because we became good friends and felt good. I don't even want to see the two of them together right now.

Encouraging yourself by devoting your chagrin to your studies may also give you strength to overcome it. I want to cheer them on.

Even my friends who knew about love still don't want to be seen as depressed me and I lost in love. On the other hand, if it's the kind of friend you think you want to encourage or be by your side at a time like this, I'm sure they'll be close to your pain.
Also, after time has passed, when the timing actually comes when I couldn't say it at that time, we may be in a relationship where we can talk.

I wonder what friends are like to you.
Be honest about how you feel right now.

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