I'm a sinner who has derailed my life alone.
The company I was working for was a tough place. I can't tell them the details of my work, and if I consult, they are implicitly ridiculed as incompetent. In a nutshell, “everything is personal responsibility”
I learned about the job on my own with the thought that “you can only get a voice after achieving results,” and worked hard at work while supporting my boss.
When I gained the trust of my manager and section chief, employees were transferred from other departments. They are knowledgeable about technology, have a sense of responsibility, and are kind to everyone. We hit it off right away. However, my boss doesn't teach me the work and doesn't assign work. Even if you talk to the section chief, just be careful. I explained the details of my work and assigned the work to him while checking with my boss.
A few months after the transfer, I received this offer from him, “Are you okay, Mr. 0? I'll listen to your worries and complaints, so feel free to say it anytime.” I was happy. There were people who depended on me, but no one cared about me. That's why I confided in my concerns.
However, six months after the transfer, he retired. Maybe it was my fault, and I think they were struggling between my boss and the section chief. I asked him, and until the end, he cheerfully said, “I will expand my areas of expertise and continue to do my best!” I said that and retired. Leave “I think it's going to be tough from now on, but don't overdo it.”
I have a common hobby with him, and I continued LINE even after I retired.
But the messages stalled for a few months. I was distrustful and sent LINE over and over again, and his mother contacted me. “My son attempted suicide and is now in the hospital”
I heard that they were caught between their boss and section chief, and that they had fallen into mental and physical disorder due to power harassment and moral harassment.
If I don't even talk to them... on the contrary, if I listen more kindly to them... If I mentioned my boss or section chief... if I had brought charges against general affairs... It's such a time. My mental and physical problems also appeared, and I was unable to work as expected. Hyperventilation, dizziness, falls due to lack of strength in the body, aphonia... Even if you talk to your boss or section chief to adjust the amount of work, they say, “Special treatment is not possible. Go to the hospital and get better. Otherwise, there will be no contract renewal.” I fell down at work many times, became Azukari in the General Affairs Department, and decided to retire.
“Self-blame orientation,” “do what you can,” or “make it possible to control your worries on your own,” capture the background and circumstances without blaming the other person, and solve the problem yourself. With that in mind, I achieved results while receiving reprimands from my boss and section chief. But as a result, I derailed my life alone because of me. He's a sinful person.