Disgusting people gather around me one after another

　Good evening. Even though I like my job and company, I'm somehow displeased. It's my intuition and hypothesis, but maybe you think “it's okay to treat it sloppily.”
Or, it's the end of maternity leave, and “I'm bothering you by taking a break until then!” Maybe that's what you think.
Either way, the other side is bad, but if it's the latter, the company system isn't enough. If it's the former, it seems like you need to confront it.
“Please don't lie,” “this is a job you should take responsibility for,” and “I'm not convinced by this evaluation”... these are all words that make waves, but if you feel “not being treated properly,” don't just say “no,” and protect your justice.
In that case, attention is a way of expression. If “I don't like it,” my opponent doesn't know what to change. You should properly state what kind of relationships you want to have with people around you.
Every workplace should understand the importance of relationships. But if you don't raise your voice, the problem may remain invisible. It may even be said that preparing that environment is one of the jobs in order to be able to continue doing the things you love.
If I haven't been able to say it until now... what am I afraid of? Is that more important than continuing to work? Please ask.
I think a person's happiness and misfortune is largely due to the environment, but the environment is not only given to them, but it is something they are personally involved in and prepared for.
The signs coming out of your body aren't because you're weak. “If the relationship continues like this, the limit will come. I think it's conveying “I wonder if it's not time to move anymore.”
Your courage naturally keeps you away from bad things. I think so.

It's a relationship issue, and it doesn't mean that the job itself isn't bad, is it? I'm doing my best with something worthwhile, so I don't want to quit because of people who are so sloppy and selfish.

That's because you can't choose people. Having to get involved with someone who has all kinds of habits is painful, isn't it?

One of the eight struggles in Buddhism. There is a pain called “grudge and bitterness (anger).” It means that it is in this world where you have to meet and go out with someone you don't like, someone you don't like, and even if you hate your grudge. In other words, my surroundings don't move as is convenient for me, my opponent has the other person's intentions, and I myself may not be good at it. I wonder if there was no cause for me to get stuck in an egocentric way of looking and thinking, and my partner would recognize me as someone I'm not good at?
In Buddhism, they not only save, but they also look back on themselves and ask questions gently but harshly. There is a hint to get rid of the seeds of suffering in such a way of life.

Of course, I don't want to say that you have more cause than your partner, and the other side must be looking at me in the same way when you see someone from your own point of view. Even if you can't do anything about your partner, let's search for ways to change or ease painful feelings with your own way of seeing them.
Also, there are probably people who feel the same way you do. That's why they also have you on your side. It would be nice if we could complain together and think about countermeasures for the other party together.

Balancing work and childcare can easily cause fatigue and stress. Please take time with your family to relax and refresh yourself. Thank you for your hard work as always.

I read it.
You're having a very hard time because all the people around you are so selfish and disgusting are gathering around you. I don't know the details about you or your workplace, but I really understand your painful feelings.
There are people who do such terrible things in their lives. There are people who don't mind scolding or hurting others in order to benefit only themselves in order to feel good about themselves. People who do such things are covered in malice, insults, and misdeeds; in other words, they are committing crimes. So even if they seem to be gaining ground, they keep losing money. Those people are willing to blame themselves for evil.
Eventually, those people will suffer, grieve, and deeply regret receiving compensation for the crimes they have committed themselves.
For you, relationships with people like that are bad relationships. I think it's unavoidable to interact at work, but there's no need to have more bad relationships than necessary.
Take care of yourself and keep a firm distance from bad relationships.
It may be a rude way of saying it, but a company or place of business with only people who commit such malice, bad words, and misdeeds is full of malice, and people with good intentions will eventually walk away and be abandoned by people. In other words, such companies and organizations will be abandoned by society, lose their value of existence, and disappear.
Please take care of yourself and your family. I sincerely pray that you will live a healthy and happy life with someone who is really important for the future, keeping good thoughts, words, and actions in mind every day. And I wholeheartedly support you.

Thank you so much for returning to work while balancing childcare and work. My heart aches so much when I think about how they are worried and shed tears to the point where they are mentally and physically unwell.

In Buddhism, one of the pains that cannot be avoided in life is “grudge and bitterness (suffering),” or “the pain of meeting someone you don't like.” No matter how sincere you are, you cannot change the minds or actions of others, and there is no way to completely prevent people you don't like from appearing.

Therefore, instead of trying to “keep people you don't like at bay,” I recommend “keeping a distance of mind and not getting deeply involved.” People who spread bad reviews or are unreasonable are not people who devalue yourself. Please separate their words and actions as “their own problems,” don't let them step into your own heart, and practice not taking them head-on.

Right now, spending warm time with your family and protecting your own health are top priorities. It's also important to separate work from work without trying to force it. The Buddha is always watching your sincere efforts. Please take care of yourself the most.

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