Others are forgiven, but I am unforgivable

Compared to the universe, the Earth is also humble, and if the balance is slightly out of balance, you and I will die in a few seconds.
In such a finely balanced universe, you are allowed to exist, at least for now.
Let's think that Ahata is necessary for the balance of the universe.
When it comes to past life karma, I like the idea of causal retribution.
If you think that all of your misfortunes and misfortunes are due to your own bad behavior in a previous life, you don't have to hit others in eight, and as a result, you can live a bright and enjoyable life.
If you can forgive them any kind of misfortune, saying, “Maybe it's my fault in a past life, then it can't be helped,” you might feel pretty at peace.
Also, the attitude of others is influenced by the normal closeness and power relationships between others and oneself.
For example, if you're a boss you're usually on good terms with, the way you get scolded when you make a mistake will change, and even if you get scolded harshly, the way you take it will change.
With a simple give-and-take approach, you may feel dissatisfied that even though I did it, the other party didn't return it in the same way.
In reality, give-and-take errors occur due to familiarity and power relationships with the other party.
Of course, building such relationships can also be troublesome, so it's okay to live a way of life where you go that far and become good friends with others and have an advantage over others because it's a hassle.
You can't control others the way you want, but if you consciously choose whether or not to make an effort to influence yourself to the extent that you can, but to what extent you do it because it's bothersome, it may lead to a sense of satisfaction.
It's also a good idea to learn a little bit of psychology and get to know some techniques.
After learning about the existence of techniques, there are times when you are convinced that “it's troublesome, so I don't have to go that far.”

I read the consultation I received, and it painfully conveyed how much you have sacrificed yourself and paid attention to your surroundings until now.

The first thing I want to tell you is that my current suffering is by no means due to “the work of a previous life,” nor is it a punishment born as a woman. Your life is definitely precious.

It's really painful to feel that “I'm not allowed to be who I am.” However, the families and people you have met so far at work are only a small part of this wider world. You may feel like the environment you are in now is everything in the world, but not only with people who will wear you down forever in the future.

You are hurting yourself so much that you are trying to be kind to others. The Buddha says, “You can be who you are,” completely envelops you without any conditions, and affirms your life as it is. We don't live to listen to other people's faces and sacrifice ourselves.

First, please direct that deep kindness towards others towards yourself. Little by little, new relationships will open up where you can take care of yourself.

Worship
Engiji Temple Shakujo

I read it.
You've never been forgiven by those around you, and you've been having a very hard time until now. I don't know the details of your relationships with you or the people around you, but I really understand your painful feelings.

You may think that only you are unforgivable, but you have been forgiven by many people, and before that, you were kindly watched over by Buddha, gods, ancestors, and many others and were very important to you.

Even if there are times when you feel that you are not forgiven by any means, you are living blessed to be forgiven and recognized by Buddha, gods, and ancestors.

Please acknowledge and cherish yourself like that.

You have a relationship with us and are having a conversation here too. You have been fully acknowledged here too. Please have confidence in yourself.
There are also people in the world who are sweet to themselves and hard on others; such people have poor hearts, are narrow-minded, and don't have confidence in themselves.

How are you doing today, I think warm spring sunshine is pouring down on you, I think plum blossoms in full bloom are smiling at you, and I think you are blessed with fresh spring strawberries and vegetables.

I sincerely pray to the Buddha, gods, and ancestors that you will continue to be gently watched over by the Buddha, gods, and ancestors, and that many blessings will be brought to you, and that you will survive healthily while being loved and loved by many people.
And I wholeheartedly support you.

That's disappointing. My boss's response is strange. This is discrimination. Doesn't anyone blame those listening on the sidelines? This kind of response is harassment, even if it's your boss. It's hard to forgive even if I listen to it.

There weren't any people around you who cared for you, right? It wasn't your fault; the people close to you and the people you met were selfish people.
Also, the influence I received from my parents was huge. A mother who was unable to control her emotions well and treated you as a child. Since I grew up in such an environment, I think I swallowed up my feelings due to the other person's attitude before showing my own intentions and feelings. I think I've been putting up with it for a long time because there won't be any waves or wind, and that one day they'll recognize me.

There are also people who take advantage of your kindness. Pretend to be in trouble, pretend to have a crush on you, get close to you, rely on them as much as you can, spoil them as much as you spoil them, and make them do their best.
Unfortunately, such people are the ones who are the best, and they don't even think about you. It is difficult to hope that one day my actions will be appreciated, appreciated by that person, and that they will treat me with care, care for me, and love me.

People who are shown kindness to others don't sacrifice themselves. That's because I can't see anyone even though I'm hurt.
You don't have to do what you don't want. Even if the other person wants it, if it makes you suffer or feel sad, they will notice it. Being able to be compassionate and sorry for overdoing it is a relationship with an important person.

If you are discriminated against by the company, you should protest that you are not satisfied. Your claim is a natural right. Also, please develop an eye for discerning lovers and friends.

There are many compassionate people in this world, people who are full of kindness, and people who can reach out. So when you feel bad, don't put up with it and say you don't like it. Let's get away. In order to take care of ourselves, let's protect ourselves.