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I can't stand being at home

Thank you for taking the time to read it.
First, please forgive me for writing a poor sentence.

I've been living with my family, and it has become mentally painful.
Now, I'll explain how that happened.

First, we'll talk about family structure and job type.
I will be the mother, eldest son, second son, and servant of the youngest son.
Of these, my mother is a temporary employee, and I am a full-time employee.
I don't know the details of my two older brothers, but I think they probably work on a temporary basis or something. But I've almost never seen them leave their homes.

Next, let's talk about why I became in pain.
I'm a high school graduate and have been working for about 5 years, and after I got a job, I made a promise with my mother to “do cooking and laundry instead of offering half of my salary.”
Basically, it's a form of depositing your own bank credit card with your mother and having them withdraw half of your salary. Also, I remember that my salary was around 200,000 yen, and my rent was certainly around 80,000 yen.

It's been about 3 years since I got a job, and the exchange continued as it was,
When I was checking my deposit balance on the app from about 2 years ago, apparently almost the entire amount of my salary was withdrawn.

I'm wondering if I should ask my mother, but this person has a slightly difficult personality,
When I answer even a little bit, they have tantrums and say, “Shut up!” They shout at me like “Yes,” and deny their personality.
Gradually, it also hits things.

Even if I ask questions in this state right now, I think they'll cut ties, so I'm thinking of personally asking banks directly or searching for sites with solutions to such cases.

For the time being, I still have over 1 million yen in my account and I'm thinking about living alone, but when I tell my mother about it, they try to tie me down by saying, “Don't try to run away alone because my two older brothers don't work.”

It's already full, and I don't know where to start.
Maybe it's okay to talk to a lawyer to see if it can really be investigated.

This kind of hesitation and wigs have piled up a lot, so I wanted to talk to the monks.
I would be grateful if you could give me a specialized answer or something,
Even if this is not the case, it would be very helpful if you could answer some hints for your own actions, things that can be a path, and words that give you the courage to make a decision to act.

Excuse me for the random and long sentences.
Thank you for your support.

4 Zen Responses

You don't have to endure it anymore. This is an opportunity for independence.

Shameless, I'm so glad you sent this consultation to Hasunoha.
How painful it must have been to carry it alone until now.
Since I graduated from high school, I have continued to work seriously for 5 years and have supported my family.
That journey is by no means “shameless,” and it is an accumulation of precious efforts. To those of your generation like my son, I would like to pay my greatest tribute. “I've worked so hard to live!!!”

In Buddhism, “relationships” are valued, but that is not “continuing to sacrifice oneself.”
The current state is like the light of your precious life is about to go out due to strong winds.
In Buddhism, there is a term for “protagonist.” It teaches the importance of regaining your “true self.”
Trying to regain your own life is an important step that also suits the Buddha's wishes.
Your new challenge has begun by contacting hasunoha this time.
Check the situation with the bank, borrow the wisdom of an attorney, and prepare for living alone.
These are by no means “escapes,” but important attempts for you to “live as the protagonist.”

You don't have to take on the lives of your mother or older brother. First, give top priority to securing a place where you can feel safe and take a deep breath. The Buddha called Amida Nyorai will continue to illuminate, protect, and guide you from now on, without ever abandoning you. I accept that it was Amida's guidance that led to this hasunoha. You're not alone anymore. Gather up your courage little by little and gain a life where you can stand on your own feet.

It makes me feel lighter when there are not only experts, but also people I can casually talk to. At hasunoha, in addition to continuing this consultation, online consultations are also possible. All of us at hasunoha are sincerely supporting you in the future.

Let's check it carefully

I read it.
That happened, and I think you were very shocked. I don't know the details, but I feel like you're being cornered very much. I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.
After all, let's check the details by filling it out properly in the bank passbook. And there are probably parts that have been pulled out all at once. Let's check that part with your mother. Even if they are a parent and child, if they withdraw money without permission, it's the same as stealing it; it's a crime. Please check that point carefully with your mother, and if so, calm down and ask about the circumstances.
If your mother is upset and you can't talk about it, let's ask your mother to return the cash card or go through the procedure of reissuing it to prohibit the use of the card.
And wouldn't it be better to get away from your parents' house for a bit?
I don't know the inside story of your family, but it's probably because you have older brothers. Nonetheless, you have the right to feel safe and live every day the way you are.
Talk to the local government's social welfare department or social welfare council about your family and get advice and support.
And I think it's okay to stay somewhere else for a while until you calm down.
If you were to leave the house and rent another place, let's talk to the local government, etc., or talk to a real estate agent about the situation and ask them to take care of it, or I think it's okay to rent a room from someone you trust.
Let's ask public institutions or support groups to take care of your mother and older siblings.
I sincerely pray that you can live peacefully and with peace of mind without getting into such trouble, that your mother and older brothers can live with peace of mind with the support of many people, and that everyone can sincerely respect each other and live a good and healthy life together.
And I wholeheartedly support you and everyone. We wholeheartedly agree

Find a new place to live and quietly prepare to leave home.

Thank you so much for your hard work every day. I'm deeply sorry for the feeling that it's getting so full.

First of all, it's about money, but when you directly deposit your own account card, the public generally interprets it as “entrusting” a certain amount of management. Also, I have to say that there is a slight fault even if you have neglected confirmation for 2 years, and arguing in court etc. about verbal promises between families is probably not a good idea even considering the mental and time burden that goes beyond this.

However, that does not mean “continue to endure the pain of the present.” Rather, now is the time to open a new door in life called “independence.” A mother has a mother's life, and siblings have a sibling's life, so there's no need for you to shoulder the burden of your family.

Even from a Buddhist perspective, keeping a physical distance from relationships that cause suffering is by no means an “escape,” but a healthy and courageous decision to promote mutual independence. Fortunately, your mom is also working, and you have enough money left to start a new life.

There's no need to try to talk to your mom head-on or ask questions. First, create a new account in your own name and ask the company to change where you transfer your salary. Then find a new place to live and quietly proceed with preparations to leave the house. I hope you can start walking on your own feet and regain your peaceful days.

Worship
Engiji Temple Shakujo

Dependence on our lives is not beneficial to both of us.

I don't want to doubt my family... even when I look at your mother's attitude towards you, I feel that it's rough, and our dependence on our lives isn't beneficial to both of us.

Why don't you think about becoming independent from your family soon?
Even when it comes to supporting families, there is a limit to financial support. Also, it's something that each family member thinks about.

First, let's get out of the house and become independent in order for you to be independent. It will also make you feel at ease. Also, while thinking about the future, the mother also reviews life plans without depending on the child. If necessary, consider administrative services as well.

it's unbearable, isn't it? With your current life, your future will be taken from you. When you fall in love and get married, you paint your own future.

To that end, let's cancel the card. Find a home and become independent. The money that went out was a promise between you and your mom, and it's hard to get it back. They haven't even signed a contract, have they?
Let's get rid of the card right now.