I apologized once

I work creatively with pictures and writing.
Previously, in a closed environment where only friends were present, there was an incident where characters created by friends were treated roughly and hurt their opponents.
At that time, I immediately apologized, promised to respond and prevent recurrence, and tried to keep a certain distance from my friend.

At the time, I intended to stop my creative activity itself, but I received words from my partner, “Let's do it together again, I'm waiting,” and I believed it, and gradually resumed my creation while reviewing my character settings and world view.
At the time of the resumption, they are also telling them that they will sincerely face creation in the future, so I want them to keep an eye on it as much as possible.

After that, I continued to post my work little by little, but the other day, I was suddenly blocked by my partner.
I thought the phrase, oh, let's do it together disappeared with each passing day, so I blocked it so that it wouldn't touch the other person's eyes either.

However, after that, it was confirmed that the other party was making statements accusing strong words such as “monster” and “monster” in a way that I could understand.

Also, the other party has multiple accounts, and the fact that I hadn't completely blocked some of them was mentioned with expressions such as “creepy, if you block them, do them all.”

When it comes to hurting others in the past, I recognize that my own lack of consideration and attitude towards creation was lacking. And now, I intend to earnestly engage in creative activities.
However, I feel a strong sense of anxiety and mental burden in response to accusations and aggressive words and actions such as those mentioned earlier. To be honest, I'm full of sad feelings.

Currently, the other party has blocked each other, and discussions are difficult.
Also, since they are in the same creative community, there is anxiety that this matter will spread to third parties in the future.
I would like to receive advice on how to respond in the future, and how to think and deal with continuing creative activities as it is.

4 Zen Responses

While quietly facing the work alone, eventually another healthy relationship

Shall I answer this for the second time? Strong accusatory words in the midst of intense reflection on past mistakes and efforts to sincerely face creation. I understand that you have deep sorrow and anxiety.

In Buddhism, we believe that everything is caused by “relationships” and changes constantly. My relationship with my partner, which used to be a warm relationship, is also sad, but now it seems that it has changed to a relationship where we bind each other's hearts and hurt each other. In order to protect your own peace of mind, the best path now is to stay firmly away from your partner or your neighborhood, both physically and mentally. Let's completely block social media, etc., and create an environment out of sight.

Also, take this opportunity to stop for a moment and reflect on your own stance on “creation.” If the root of this is a “desire for approval” from others or a “standing position (mount)” in the neighborhood, it would be difficult to escape this suffering. This is because other people's minds and public evaluations will never go the way you want them to.

The origin of creation must have been the “joy of creating,” which you genuinely feel. Creative activities can be started by just one person without worrying about anyone's eyes. If you are now learning from past experiences and trying to make a sincere comeback, you will eventually be able to meet another healthy relationship (new friend) while quietly facing the work alone.

Now, please get away from other people's voices, keep quiet, and work on creating something just for yourself.

Worship
Engiji Temple Shakujo

Let's talk about slander and ask for a response

I read it.
You've committed mistakes before and deeply hurt others, and then you've apologized and been forgiven by your partner, and continued your creative activities. However, your opponent blocked you all of a sudden, so when you blocked you, they said something very terrible. You feel so uneasy about the accusations and aggressive words and actions, and you're worried about what to do. I don't know the details about you or those people, but it really conveys how troubled you are. I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.
Even if you have resumed your creative activities and interacted, those people may have been unable to forgive your creative activities and actions when you first start. Maybe that's why they started blocking them and saying terrible things.
I think it originally started because of a mistake you committed. Therefore, you yourself should be sincere and don't reflect on what happened before.
Nonetheless, it is unforgivable to say such terrible words and actions on SNS or to attack you and be deeply hurt.
Regarding that point, I think it is preferable to request deletion from a slander hotline or SNS administrator or provider, or consult with the National Police Agency's hotline.
https://www.npa.go.jp/bureau/cyber/countermeasures/defamation.html
Such words and actions are illegal acts and violations of human rights. So it's not allowed.
Be sure to consult with public institutions and receive advice and support.

Let's stop getting involved with those people at all. Relationships with people who commit such malice, insults, and misdeeds are bad relationships. Let's break up a bad relationship for a while, or rather.

And first of all, please stay calm and live every day.
You must have been very hurt, take care of yourself. Also, please don't commit any mistakes yourself, and do your creative activities from now on without saying bad words or misdeeds.

I sincerely pray that you can live every day peacefully and with peace of mind and peace of mind for the future without making bad words or misdeeds, and that you will be able to carry out your creative activities with a clear mind. We wholeheartedly agree

Please work hard on your activities by supporting someone you believe in and your own beliefs

Blocking was an expression of refusal/rejection, and it must have felt very disappointing. What's more, it's frustrating to receive unprovoked slander.

I feel like previous events are drawing their tail off. However, instead of hurting them in this way, I wanted them to tell you directly if there's something you still don't like.

If you were this kind of person, let's understand that you saw the essence. I'm not convinced at all, but from now on, let's cherish what you think is important. Even if people around you misunderstand you, there are people who believe you. Please support such an existence and your own beliefs, and work hard on your activities.

“10 minute break”

Ruu-sama, this is Kanonji no Otetsu.
It was really painful to have such heart-breaking feelings at this place of creation that shatters the soul. It's a blade-like word from someone who once said “I'm waiting.” For those of you who were looking ahead, I understand that it was a fear of being thrown into a bottomless swamp.
I was in a nursing home. It's a place where people's raw emotions swirl. The person who said “thank you” until yesterday suddenly bursts into intense anger. I have been present at such scenes many times. Based on that experience, there are “3 truths” that I want to tell Ruu-sama now.
1. The other person's words are not for you
The fact that your partner uses strong words such as “monster” is actually proof that they were so obsessed with you. The hurt pain distorted into “hate” precisely because I loved it. This is a rough feeling on the other person's mind. This is not a mirror that accurately reflects your current creative attitude. You don't even need to take those words anywhere.
2. Embrace your unpredictable mind
The human mind is also in the midst of “various imperfections” where you don't know how it will change in an instant. Both the fact that the other party said “I'm waiting” and the current “rejection” are the truth about the other person at that time. However, just because your partner's feelings change doesn't mean that the trust you've built up becomes worthless. The process of honestly moving the brush is the solid foundation for who you are now.
3. The more “mud,” the bigger the lotus flower blooms
In Buddhism, there is a saying, “If there is a lot of mud, the lotus (lotus) is great.” Right now, it's natural to worry about the eyes around you, but the world is surprisingly calm. People who reveal their emotions and continue to attack, and people who silently and sincerely face their creations. When you look at it a long time, it's clear which one you can trust.

Going to look into someone's malice is like pouring poison into your own heart. You can close both physically and mentally. It's not an escape; it's a proper “trick” to protect oneself. And no matter what anyone says, please keep creating the most sincere work.
There is always a seed that will make your own beautiful flower bloom in the mud now.
At my temple, we value a “10-minute break.” If you feel anxious and almost stop brushing, visit a temple anytime. It can be done remotely or by phone. I wholeheartedly support your fresh start.
Gassho

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