My feelings are no longer satisfied.

Thank you for your consultation. I was reading it, and I felt a sense of relief.
“So what?” “What is that?” As a man in his 40s, I feel like I understand these words very well.

It's not strange. Rather, it is precisely because I have been seriously dealing with my work for so many years that one day, I suddenly run out of fuel.
You've done your job properly, no matter how yelled at you or when they say bad things. I think not only my body but also my mind has accumulated quite a bit of fatigue.

“Are you tired?” Yes, I'm sure it is. That's probably the reason. Before I knew it, I think my mind was quite exhausted before I knew it.

I don't have to try to give an answer right away, but I would be happy if I could put my current feelings into words in this way, and that alone made me feel a little easier.

It is impossible to suddenly restore one's own mind, which has changed over time, to the form it should be. Please take about the same amount of time to slowly bring it back slowly. Let's go together.

You've been able to work hard up to this point even though you've had a lot of things. I also think it's a sign of a slight “mental run out of energy.”

The reduced sense of accomplishment may have paralyzed the ability to feel joy even though they used to be happy. I've been running up to this point, and the burden and sense of loss about big goals may have made me lose sight of the meaning and purpose of “what for.”

Maybe there aren't that many people whose work directly leads to fulfillment and satisfaction. In other words, when it comes to working separately from work, and working for a living, everyone is doing their best while accepting the environment.

Let go of “should” in order for you to be satisfied even a little bit now. Relax the pressure you've been putting on yourself. The results of work are not my own value or satisfaction. A job that makes use of expertise in response to customer requests. I will do my work silently. That's the specialist. It's a wonderful thing. Motivation shouldn't change your approach to work. Let's work on it by properly separating work and ourselves.

I read it.
I read that you thought so. I feel like I can also understand how you feel that way. I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.
If you feel that way, why don't you take a good rest for now. I don't know how long it's appropriate to rest, but why don't you take a good rest and reset both your mind and body.

Then why don't you calm down and face the future in your own way. You may have reached the middle of your life, so why not stop for now and create an opportunity to review how you want to live your life from now on? Life is finite. It's your irreplaceable life, and it's your life. Please take advantage of this opportunity once in order to live your life to your own satisfaction.
I wholeheartedly support you.

The same thing happened to me.
Every day, I visit for the moon, do a fixed job, talk about the same thing, and the same at the next house.
I spend every day casually doing the same thing.
I don't have any hobbies I'm addicted to, and day by day goes by.
The troublesome morning will come when the same thing is repeated over and over again.

At one point, when I attended a study session, my lecturer said it.
“Aren't you tired of reading the same sutras every day? I'm getting bored.”
and.
Oh, I thought there were people who thought the same thing as me.
There are a lot of sutras, and I definitely don't have to read those sutras, so I decided to try changing them.
It was so fresh.

I don't know what the job of a self-employed old man is, but can't I make any changes in my job? Or can't you try changing or expanding your hobbies a little bit?
Just by changing your daily routine a little, you may be able to see a different world, and it may be stimulating.
I don't know if it would be helpful, but please try it.