I can't make an effort.

I read it.
I read that you are anxious and fearful. I don't know the details about you, the people around you, or your environment, but I can tell you that you are worried about what to do in the future. I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.
Until now, there was only a sense of obligation, and the entrance exam went well without any effort, so I'm worried about what to do in the future.
You're afraid to take a step forward, and you're afraid to live a happy life. I think a lot of things are popping up in your head, and you're probably putting yourself in a hurry.
First of all, please don't worry, know that you are still living well. You are now blessed with many relationships, and you have been given life and life.
There's no life without anxiety, fear, and hesitation; we don't know what's ahead, and neither are you and those around you.
First, take a slow look at what's right in front of you, then start little by little where you can. If you do it little by little, you'll be able to do it, and please accumulate what you can do one by one.
Everyone has things they can do or can't do, things they are good at, and things they aren't good at. So first, let's take your time and do what you can, one at a time.
I will support you from the bottom of my heart.
Please let us know how you feel, and we look forward to seeing you.

Thank you very much for your consultation.
After looking at your profile, it can be seen that in your case the cause is somewhere else, but I would appreciate it if you could listen carefully to the following as an objective opinion of others.

Little by little, we are getting closer to our goal. I think that alone is amazing enough.
There is a saying, “If I did it somehow, I got accepted,” but I don't think that's somehow. This is the result of moving forward without falling down even though they were cornered. You don't have to underestimate yourself too much.
“I'm afraid to improve.” “Fear of being happy.”
It's not strange at all to be scared. It's scary to think that if you do your best and it falls apart. Expectations are scary when betrayed. When those feelings pile up, my body stops even before I move. It's not a weakness; it's a defensive instinct of the mind that has protected itself so as not to get hurt until now.
You don't have to put any conditions on moving after you think “let's do our best.” That's because feelings often follow after moving.
Small is fine. I'll try just one today, even if it's a sense of duty. After continuing to do that, little by little, a feeling of “Oh, maybe I don't like this” is born.
You don't have to be impatient. Because you're definitely already moving. Gassho

Things that can be improved should be improved. There's no need to be afraid.
If you can be happy, you should be happy. Don't hesitate.
You can also help people if you become a happy and independent adult woman.
If you're unhappy and dependent on others, you won't be able to help yourself or others.
Even if you don't panic, you should search for future goals and hobbies that you genuinely enjoy from now on. Take an interest in various jobs and search for the job you want to try.
Do your best in class, homework, studying for entrance exams, socializing with classmates, and if you're interested, do your best in club activities and clubs. That's because it's an experience that can only be done now.
You can work part-time, but for a limited time so that it doesn't interfere with your studies or life.
You don't need to compare yourself to people. Cherish your own personality.
I hope you enjoy your student life.

I think students live their lives thinking that even if they don't have big goals, the purpose is to go to school, and that the exams and entrance exams that are conducted there are progressing. I think there are many students who can sympathize with your concerns.

This world is an information society. As you get to know various worlds and active people, you'll naturally be able to see what you want to do and what goals you're aiming for.

Even if you say that you have progressed without any particular effort, it is certain that your hard work in studying and taking exams has come to fruition.

I was curious about what was written in my profile. The situation you're in. I think there are times when you're alone. Are there collaborators around? If you seem to be doing your best in life rather than finding hobbies and fun, there are various supports for single mothers, so please contact us again.

You can do whatever you can at your own pace. That's a very admirable thing.