I don't feel motivated
People will die one day. Everything, not limited to people, will come to an end someday.
When I think about it, nothing lasts forever in this world, and it makes me think that there isn't much meaning in what a small being like me did.
Probably because of that, no matter what I do, I don't feel very motivated.
It's not like I want to run away from bad things. Rather, it's the same even when you're doing what you love. For example, even if you're watching an anime or playing a game, there are times when it suddenly becomes empty along the way and you stop. When that happens, all you have to do is wait in the futon for time to pass.
When it comes to school and study, rather than working on it of one's own will, there is a sense of adapting to the surroundings “because it is something that is done.” Of course, I understand it's necessary for the future. However, when I think that future will end someday, I don't understand the point of making an effort.
It is said that time and memories with friends are also important, but those too will be lost someday. Once you've watched a work that moved you, it's over, and no matter how many fun events are in the past.
I'm not particularly unhappy. Rather, I think they are blessed people. And yet, I can't get out of this way of thinking.
In Buddhism, there is a way of thinking about “impermanence.” However, I don't become positive enough to know those words, and I feel that “it's meaningless because everything will be lost anyway.”
So I have a question.
How do you view this kind of thinking in Buddhism?
Also, how do you originally accept the idea of impermanence?
Am I misunderstanding something important? Or is this emptiness also natural?
