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I can't accept the number of people she's dating

We are alafos to each other. (I have a divorced child, and she has no unmarried children.)
It became a story about her and her past lovers, but it seems that they have dated about 30 people until now, and they said that the number of people they have experienced is about 35 people. (It is said that the 5 people of the difference were treated as girlfriends and had physical relationships)
Incidentally, I'm 5 people including my girlfriend.
When I learned about this, to be honest, I was surprised at how many there were.
When I asked them why there were so many of them, they said they would often try dating for the time being.
In particular, they said that trend has accelerated since they started matching apps.
Even though there are parts that can't be helped due to the characteristics of matching apps, I have found myself feeling very shallow due to so many, and it's painful not being able to accept her past choices.
Also, despite her easygoing personality, it is also said that some of the people I dated when I was a student were former gangsters (I quit before we started dating), Yankees, and gal guys, and I don't understand the meaning of dating or being with her at all even though they shouldn't suit her personality at all. (I told myself that I had been relaxed since I was a student, and I also said that I was afraid of the Yankees.)
Also, in sexual activity with successive boyfriends even though I had no intention of getting married, it seems that they took the pill and led to sexual activity, but I didn't properly think about the risk of venereal diseases or the risk of pregnancy, and I felt that even this incident was shallow and uncomfortable.
I'm worried in the future that they will eventually end up as soon as they were in the past, and that even if we build a relationship, it will collapse without surprise.
The past is in the past, so I should take a look at her now! She is now because of her past experiences! I understand that kind of thing in my head, but my heart just can't catch up.
My current girlfriend takes great care of me, and she seems to think that she is the person of her destiny, and she says that she is conscious of marriage and feels happy only when her body and mind are satisfied.
They have fallen in love with me that much, and I can't accept my past just because I like it, and I'm thinking about breaking up, so it's very painful.
I've been putting up with it for the past few weeks because I thought it would be bad to ask her about her over and over again, but my anxiety just grew day by day.
Could you give me some advice on how to think about it, how to get along, or how to end it? I would like your strict opinion.

4 Zen Responses

If you're thinking about the future, look a little deeper.

I'm not going to talk about past relationships or the number of people, though...
Honestly, I mean I haven't thought about anything...
I wonder if they don't think about what kind of impression they will have on their partner (you). Assuming that it's fine to get to know someone on an app, dating for the time being would probably lack prudence in terms of age. That's where she's in danger, isn't she?

The pill is a contraceptive, so if used well, it has a high contraceptive effect, but it also has side effects and is a burden on the body. Also, they are prescribed at hospitals. It also has benefits for women's health management, such as relieving menstrual pain (dysmenorrhea) and PMS (premenstrual syndrome), and improving anemia. This means that it is also conceivable that there may be anxiety about hormonal balance or health.

If it's a romantic relationship, I think it would be nice if you could have a good time when you want to meet, but if you're thinking about the future, I think it would be nice if you could take a deeper look.

If you're not prepared to “accept,” step back

Thank you very much for your consultation. Even if my head knows “I should look at my current girlfriend,” my heart will inevitably reject her. The pain of being torn apart, and the conflict that comes from caring for her will be painfully conveyed.

From a monk's point of view, I dare to be strict and candid.

Buddhism explains that all suffering comes from “obsession” and “ignorance (ignorance)” of not being able to see things as they are.
The reason you are suffering now is not the “girlfriend who loves you” right in front of you, but because you are fighting an illusion called “her past image” in your brain.

However, since she “tried dating for the time being,” the men she once chose, and the feeling that she judged her method of contraception as “shallow and disgusting,” I have to say that there is a shortage of “vessels” that surround everything about her within you at the moment. This is not right or wrong; it's a matter of “skill” or compatibility.

After going through all her doubts and experiences in the past, she has now arrived at your “terminal station” and is devoting herself both body and soul. Her confession is proof of her absolute trust in you. If that is “unacceptable,” I can see a future where I doubt her and hurt her by going back through the past.

If you're not prepared to accept it, the greatest form of mercy (kindness) is to stop being spoiled by her affection and to step back in order not to waste any more time with each other.

If you still don't want to break up, decide to 100% affirm her past, saying “it was a necessary process that shaped the wonderful girlfriend she is now.” A half-hearted compromise will only make both of you unhappy.

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Depends on the situation and perspective

I read it.
I see, I read what you're worried about. I feel like I can also understand that you would think that. I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.
I think what you've heard has stuck deeply in your heart. If you keep obsessing about that, you'll find it hard for yourself.
If you were in a completely different situation, your point of view and way of thinking would change, and you might feel overwhelmed without getting caught up.
That may depend on the circumstances and you.
Please take your time and look back at yourself.
I sincerely pray that you and that person will be able to live a life respecting each other and sharing compassion and happiness with your loved ones. We wholeheartedly agree

As requested by Sarashina, I will respond strictly

I saw your consultation, Sarashina.

I understand very well that Sarashina is seriously thinking about whether to take her as her wife as her partner in her second life from now on.

Also, to be honest, I don't think that's a bad thing for me when it comes to the fact that she said about the number of people she has experienced in the past.

This is because if you're a normal woman, there's a high possibility that they won't say how many people

I think it depends on their personality how they felt when they said that number of people, but I think there are people who think that spitting out everything that has been washed out is sincere.

However, if Sarashina says she can't stand that number of people as of now, I can't help but say that this wasn't originally compatible.

Matching apps etc. are also often used everyday, and it seems that both men and women decide to go out with each other after checking their physical compatibility.

Information that there are people like that should be included.

I think the number one problem is in Sarashina's mind.

If you want to continue to be in a relationship even with such an open girlfriend, I think it would be okay if we continued to be in a relationship.

However, when something happens in the relationship between the two of them in the future, I want you to never say that you are a woman with only a large number of past lovers, so you should have broken up at that time.

You should decide at your own risk whether you can accept her or not.

Also, it's nonsense for men to insistently ask about past relationships, and women hate it the most.

Now that you know all that, please keep an eye on the fact that there is no trial where the relationship between the two went well.

Men and women don't think with their heads; they just have compatibility and instincts; they just want to be with this person no matter what.
If it were for this person, I could put up with it and forgive him.

I think that's the kind of place, so if you instinctively stopped, you might not be the person you were destined to do, and I think I have no choice but to ask my heart about that.

When they say they don't feel comfortable or tell me how to break up, I wonder if it's already different.

I feel like I'm not prepared.

Please think about it carefully.