I can't accept the number of people she's dating
We are alafos to each other. (I have a divorced child, and she has no unmarried children.)
It became a story about her and her past lovers, but it seems that they have dated about 30 people until now, and they said that the number of people they have experienced is about 35 people. (It is said that the 5 people of the difference were treated as girlfriends and had physical relationships)
Incidentally, I'm 5 people including my girlfriend.
When I learned about this, to be honest, I was surprised at how many there were.
When I asked them why there were so many of them, they said they would often try dating for the time being.
In particular, they said that trend has accelerated since they started matching apps.
Even though there are parts that can't be helped due to the characteristics of matching apps, I have found myself feeling very shallow due to so many, and it's painful not being able to accept her past choices.
Also, despite her easygoing personality, it is also said that some of the people I dated when I was a student were former gangsters (I quit before we started dating), Yankees, and gal guys, and I don't understand the meaning of dating or being with her at all even though they shouldn't suit her personality at all. (I told myself that I had been relaxed since I was a student, and I also said that I was afraid of the Yankees.)
Also, in sexual activity with successive boyfriends even though I had no intention of getting married, it seems that they took the pill and led to sexual activity, but I didn't properly think about the risk of venereal diseases or the risk of pregnancy, and I felt that even this incident was shallow and uncomfortable.
I'm worried in the future that they will eventually end up as soon as they were in the past, and that even if we build a relationship, it will collapse without surprise.
The past is in the past, so I should take a look at her now! She is now because of her past experiences! I understand that kind of thing in my head, but my heart just can't catch up.
My current girlfriend takes great care of me, and she seems to think that she is the person of her destiny, and she says that she is conscious of marriage and feels happy only when her body and mind are satisfied.
They have fallen in love with me that much, and I can't accept my past just because I like it, and I'm thinking about breaking up, so it's very painful.
I've been putting up with it for the past few weeks because I thought it would be bad to ask her about her over and over again, but my anxiety just grew day by day.
Could you give me some advice on how to think about it, how to get along, or how to end it? I would like your strict opinion.
