I want to die soon ①

I think it's great that you work hard in your own way. The Buddha said it too. “To live is to make an effort. Those who don't make an effort are already dead.” You're already living a good life. I think I'll be able to live from now on. Please praise yourself for your hard work.
That's because there is luck in love. A single monk said it too. “If I meet someone I can get married to, I'll get married, but if I don't meet, I'll just stay single and live my life.” I think there are ideals, but please don't suffer by being too obsessed with them. Of course, it's also important not to overlook encounters with nice people who are interested in the opposite sex and treat you kindly.
Relationships are difficult, aren't they? Wars around the world, incidents, and troubles in the world are all caused by human relationships, aren't they? It may not work, but since I did my best in my own way, I think it's great. I drink alone in a corner at drinking parties, and I think that's fine. That's because it's fun just to watch lively people talking happily.
I think it's okay to have a psychiatrist diagnose you once if you have a mental illness. I think having people look at yourself objectively and get to know yourself in more detail is useful in life and work. Once my physical condition and mood are stable, I'm likely to get better at work and various things.
It's enough to be yourself from now on, so please do your best.

I read your question.

First, I'm worried that it says “I want to die soon.” If you think this moment is dangerous, don't endure it alone and contact #いのちSOS 0120-061-338 right away.

Looking at the sentence, you're definitely not a “person who doesn't think anything.”

Rather, they are thinking quite seriously about how to report, contact, and communicate, distance from people, how to treat women, and even how to work.

Idiots are also mental health workers for the time being, but from your sentences, I got the impression that they have a strong sense of responsibility and that they look closely at their surroundings.

However, the better people can see their surroundings, the more likely they are to see their own failures and loneliness.

I don't think I need to try to solve my whole life right now.

Love, marriage, work, relationships. If you carry it all at once, everyone will suffer.

First, live for today.
Next, greet tomorrow.
Also, it is about carefully doing the work one by one to the extent that can be done.

“Not being able to do it” is not the end.
It's “something I'll learn little by little from now on.”

“Unhappy” is not a decision.
It means “there is room for happiness from now on.”

You're not the one being told not to live.

They are people who are trying to somehow get involved with people, work, and be happy, even though it is difficult to live.

First, don't die.

You don't have to change your life all at once.
I will somehow surpass today's day.
You can do it from there.

I read it.
I read that you go through every day without a hard time. You have a developmental disability, your work isn't going well, you can't get along easily with people, and you feel lonely. Under such circumstances, you want to die as soon as possible, don't you? I don't know the details of you or your surroundings, but it really conveys your feelings. I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.

It really conveys that you are having a hard time living and not going well.
If possible, don't just hold that thought in your heart; please say it here too, and try sharing your thoughts with many people. Please try talking to people and counselors you trust one by one about your thoughts as you can think of.

If not all of your thoughts, try talking to many people about your thoughts and have them accept them and understand them.

Also, please sincerely confess your thoughts to the Buddha, gods, and ancestors as they are. Please put your hands together slowly and sincerely face the Buddha, gods, and ancestors, and tell the Buddha, your gods, and your ancestors as you think of your thoughts and feelings.
Buddha, gods, and ancestors will kindly accept all of your thoughts, gently snuggle up to your heart, and comfort and save you.
You are being kindly watched over by Buddha, gods, and ancestors anytime, anywhere.

As you share your thoughts little by little, I think your heart will gradually become lighter and your sense of loneliness will fade.

Also, if possible, try participating in local volunteer activities and various events little by little. Or please participate in events at shrines and temples.

I sincerely pray to the Buddha, gods, and ancestors that you can be saved by being gently watched over by the Buddha, gods, and ancestors so that you can live every day easily and peacefully, little by little.
And I will support you from the bottom of my heart.

You've been able to live your life with all kinds of difficulties, haven't you? Even if you try hard to do something about it, there are situations where you can't do anything, and while you have symptoms, you feel that it's too harsh and limited to live in society.

Even after consulting, nothing was resolved...
Well, it's not like anyone will give you what you're looking for, you won't be replaced by anyone, and you may only be able to tell them to live together on the side of suffering.

Therefore, it may be necessary for you to find choices that are easier to live in as you accept reality.

Everyone has their own limitations, and while accepting themselves, I think they will search for a place where it is easy to live.

Hasunoha has been going on for over 10 years. I've been listening the whole time, unchanged. While sharing our worries together, I would like to live in the same era without abandoning them.

A location meeting is being held. Actually, tonight was the day of the event. I hope it will lead to an easier life for you.

“Papageno Time”

It is a gentle space where people who have feelings of wanting to die spend time talking
#I want to die #painful #I want to disappear

*1st of every month 22:00 to 0:00
zoom room

*To participate, follow the X account.

*Permission to the zoom room will be determined based on the follower account name.

“Papageno” is named after the man (Papageno) who appears in Mozart's opera “The Magic Flute.”

People who have feelings of wanting to die and people who have trouble living are living while making choices not to die.

Let's spend that feeling together at night in this space at this time once a month.