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The need to go to college, the pain of studying for entrance exams.

I'm in my second year of high school. Since I was little, my parents' fights and bad talk, hospitalization and rehabilitation due to an accident, and tinnitus due to depression and the sequelae of deafness have overlapped, and I have a feeling that “I have lived without time to rest my mind.” It was also influenced by that, and now I have a strong feeling that “I want to live my own way of life with as little stress as possible.”

A few months ago, I first got a job that made me think “I want to get this job.” Even high school graduates can apply for that job, but parents and older acquaintances say, “College graduates have an advantage, and if that job doesn't go well, it's better to go to college because it will expand the path when that job doesn't go well.” I understand what you're saying, and I also understand the merits of being a college graduate.

However, I don't have “what I want to do at university.” I also looked up faculties, but I can only think of universities as “places to qualify as college graduates,” and I'm not motivated to study for entrance exams. I have a personality where I can't continue my efforts unless I am “convinced that it is necessary.”

Moreover, when I run into problems I don't understand in my studies, I feel a strong sense of stress because I remember the experiences of being yelled at by my father in the past or laughed at by my cram school lecturer. Sometimes the more you feel like crying, the more mentally exhausting it is.

People around you say, “Do your best now so you don't suffer in the future.” But for me, my current suffering is much more real than future suffering that I still can't even imagine. Even now, I'm quite exhausted just studying for the entrance exam, and I'm not fully convinced even when people say “suffer now for the future.”

Maybe it's better to go to college in order to live a less stressful life. But studying for the entrance exam for that is the hardest thing for me right now.
When I look back at the details of the consultation, I feel that my field of view has narrowed.
What should I think about moving forward?

4 Zen Responses

It's about setting your own goals firmly and concretizing the path you are going to walk

Until now, I had great pain both mentally and physically, and I was able to live my life hard without a moment of rest. Being able to find the goal of “I want to get this job” in the midst of that deep hardship is proof of your ability to live, and it is a truly wonderful sprout of hope.

I understand the feeling of getting lost in the advice of those around you, but that doesn't necessarily mean “college graduate = a peaceful life with less stress.” There are many people who have great stress and worries even after graduating from college and going out into society. Going on to college is just a means, and enduring the hard work of studying for entrance exams without a purpose or sense of satisfaction is difficult for everyone. Now that past wounds are hurting, there's no need to force yourself to wear down your heart.

The fact that you notice “I feel like my field of vision is narrowing” is proof that you are looking at yourself objectively. As for how to move forward, please first step away from the two choices of “should I go to college”, investigate the “job you want to do” you've found in more detail, and gradually concretize your own wishes. In life, “studying” is not just for entrance exams, and the eagerness to continue learning for one's future even without going to college is the greatest strength.

Second year of high school is a natural time for hearts to be shaken. Let's not be overly impatient and think flexibly. If you can clearly set your own goals and concretize the path you are going to take, your parents will surely respect your heart. Please feel at ease and move towards your hopes at your own pace.

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Engiji Temple Shakujo

Take concrete actions

I don't know what job you want to do, but are you making an effort to get that job?
Also, is that occupation an occupation where you can realistically eat?
If you were able to get a job in that occupation, if you were unable to adapt to the job and quit in a short period of time, wouldn't not only your family but yourself regret “I wish I had gone to college.”
Being too afraid of failure is a bad thing about Japanese people, so if you have the spirit and actual effort to absolutely succeed in the job you want to become, I think you should take on the challenge without fear of failure.
Right now, let's first do something specific so that you can proudly say “I'm actually making an effort to succeed” and “that's why I'm going forward without fear of failure (without insurance called a university).”
Even if you're worried about the same information, it makes your thoughts go round and round.
If we move forward concretely, we will be able to discover new information.
New information brings new ideas, and new ideas come with new emotions and new physical conditions/moods.
Also, in these days when social conditions are rapidly changing, putting off employment for 4 years due to university life is one way of life. If you gain experience such as working part-time during that time, it will also lead to confidence in job hunting.

First hurdle in life, please do your best

Mr. Maimichi, please contact us.

Second year of high school is an exam period, isn't it?

It's great that I was able to do a job that made me think “I want to get this job”!

Everyone is in trouble because they can't find it.
Even high school graduates can apply for that job, right?

If I'm the parent of Mr. Maze, I think I can go the other way if it's an occupation-related vocational school I want to attend now, or a university that is advantageous for that occupation.

I found a job I wanted to get, but it was a shame.
I can start college anytime.

The time when I was “convinced that it was necessary” began. Even if you're not in college right now, of course that's fine.
However, the entrance exam for working adults is quite difficult due to the race against time.

Incidentally, I got a job once, worked during the daytime, and went to prep school after work,
I took the university entrance exam at age 27 and became a college student. I was so desperate that I studied without sleeping. It was tough.

It means being told to do your best now in order not to suffer in the future. In this case, there are differences in salary and future positions between college graduates and high school graduates when they join the company.
Also, when changing jobs (including changing jobs for career advancement), college graduates are a guarantee to some extent.

Also, if the root of your current worries is because you don't want to study, that's another matter.

Because everybody doesn't want to study. I don't want to study for the entrance exam. This is because everyone understands why, and few children are studying.

Even so, I did my best to study, which I didn't like, and went to college.

So, conversely, even though it's painful, in the sense that they have the patience to say whether they can endure it, saying that they are college graduates also leads to that person's evaluation. Whether you can put up with it or not.

That's unreasonable. But that is society too. It's a reality.

This is because at first, you only know that person in writing. This is because you won't know what's inside until you adopt it.

Whichever life you take, you should be satisfied with it, and if you seem to have enough energy to make life choices that you are satisfied with, that's a great thing.

However, it is also true that it is actually easier, including memory, if you work hard now.

Life is long. The time to become a college student is also different for each person. There are also people in their 40s who become college students in their 50s again.

There are also people who go to college at night while working, or people go to college by correspondence.

Based on various things, please make responsible choices while there is information.

I think it is necessary to make a choice while considering various directions.

I also read my profile.
The symptoms you are having. There are probably difficulties and hardships in everyday life.

Under such circumstances, I was able to find the job I was aiming for. I want to take on the challenge. I want to support your dreams.

There is an aspect where I can be convinced that the opinions of those around me are certainly true. It can also be said that it is advice hoping for future possibilities.

After you graduate from high school, you plan to do job hunting and apply, right?
The stress that comes from trauma is greater than hopes for university entrance exams and university life. Facing and overcoming this challenge may be more difficult than college life, isn't it?

I think it is necessary to make a choice while considering various directions. However, no matter what, I think there are fewer regrets if you cherish your own choices.

What is the high graduate rate for that occupation? As a matter of fact, are there people who are actually taking the path you choose and playing an active role? It would also be helpful to look it up.