Past Failures and How to Redeem Them
Now that I'm in my 30s, people around me have been promoted, got married, and had children, and while thinking that I wasn't there recently during a period like a report card for the first time I did in my 20s, I'm now being tormented by the regrets I made when I was young and foolish in the past, but now I'm being tormented by the regrets I did when I was young and foolish in the past. It's a world of intense professional competition, and I don't have much energy compared to others, but I still didn't think about anything and was weak, so I took attitudes I shouldn't have done to teachers and people around me who were kind, and I destroyed my opportunities myself by being treated coldly. Now I'm in a position and work where I stand above others, and I think calmly about how foolish and ignorant I was even though I was young, and it has become black history. I don't intend to make excuses anymore, but the main cause was that I was unselfishly angry because I didn't have enough strength to be reliable about my abilities at that time, and that my teachers were in trouble and left unattended while acknowledging my abilities.
If I were to correct the original situation, my human weakness and half-hearted experts were barefoot, and it was because of a selfish sense of loneliness, but now it's just a rude person, causing trouble to my wonderful teacher.
When I look at the various people around me now, and the opportunities and relationships that come with me, I feel that getting older after all is a report card caused by the causes and effects I have made myself,
There are people who crush people behind the scenes in order to live on the front, and people who are said so bad on the front are actually people with terrible personalities behind the scenes... I don't really think in this day and age that atonement helps people, but is there spider silk in this world? Is it a crime if someone with a heart fights against their own and loses?
Recently, I honestly don't feel that the trend of blaming humanity as evil is giving birth to a lack of room in the world again.
