hasunoha

Past Failures and How to Redeem Them

Now that I'm in my 30s, people around me have been promoted, got married, and had children, and while thinking that I wasn't there recently during a period like a report card for the first time I did in my 20s, I'm now being tormented by the regrets I made when I was young and foolish in the past, but now I'm being tormented by the regrets I did when I was young and foolish in the past. It's a world of intense professional competition, and I don't have much energy compared to others, but I still didn't think about anything and was weak, so I took attitudes I shouldn't have done to teachers and people around me who were kind, and I destroyed my opportunities myself by being treated coldly. Now I'm in a position and work where I stand above others, and I think calmly about how foolish and ignorant I was even though I was young, and it has become black history. I don't intend to make excuses anymore, but the main cause was that I was unselfishly angry because I didn't have enough strength to be reliable about my abilities at that time, and that my teachers were in trouble and left unattended while acknowledging my abilities.
If I were to correct the original situation, my human weakness and half-hearted experts were barefoot, and it was because of a selfish sense of loneliness, but now it's just a rude person, causing trouble to my wonderful teacher.
When I look at the various people around me now, and the opportunities and relationships that come with me, I feel that getting older after all is a report card caused by the causes and effects I have made myself,
There are people who crush people behind the scenes in order to live on the front, and people who are said so bad on the front are actually people with terrible personalities behind the scenes... I don't really think in this day and age that atonement helps people, but is there spider silk in this world? Is it a crime if someone with a heart fights against their own and loses?
Recently, I honestly don't feel that the trend of blaming humanity as evil is giving birth to a lack of room in the world again.

4 Zen Responses

three bags 

Three cobwebs are hanging from the sky in front of you. What's more, it comes with a bag. 👼 Let me give you three bags.
bag 1
A bag for forgiving yourself in the past
“('-`) Forgive me a little bit”
Why did I act like that at that time? I'll put in a notepad and pencil to ask myself why. Also, I'll put in Pikopiko Hammer to forgive myself!
・Why did I feel that way back then
・I want to blame him, but I gave up a hundred steps and really what should I have done
・You've learned something from your mistakes, haven't you?
Everyone in this world is a resident of a developing country.
You don't have to be easy, you know, you know, you don't have to be easy. Everyone is good at it. What matters is how we recover from there.
If you want to blame yourself, hit only those negative thoughts while softly hitting your head with this Pikopiko Hammer.
👼 Don't blame your past self so much.
You must have worked hard in your own way.
Today, please first forgive yourself, even if it's just a joke.

bag 2
“('-`) I want to make amends. I'll make amends for myself.”
Throw away your self-preservation and pride and apologize
Apologizing to Pont is not an apology with a self-preservation first attitude.
At the press conference, “That was fine!” that's because it's crazy.
That's why I have serious repentance.
Things like “forgive me a little bit” are also out. lol
There are times when you apologize but they won't be forgiven.
Then, all that's left is to keep doing activities that are useful to someone else!
Only work as a good bacteria man in this world!
Good bacteria man! That's a new face!
Accumulating actions such as “thank you,” “thank you,” and “thank you 👈” in the future may be the biggest compensation, right? 👼

bag 3
A bag of hope for the future
“Yes. Let's do it.”
Positive feelings are important in order to move forward into the future.
・Both failure and end are triggers for new beginnings.
・I'm sure this experience of mine will help someone.
・From now on. The future doesn't come from the past. That's because the future is something that can only come from now on. That's why, that's why it means what's going to happen now. (Koizumi syntax?)
I'll give you these three flying bags, so please forgive yourself 🔨, repent what you should seriously repent for, and work hard to become loved characters like Good Bacteria Man, at least Shokpan Man and Melonpanna.

You should take care of yourself now and live a vibrant life in your current place

I deeply look back on your own words and actions in the past, and I feel your sincerity and rich maturity as a person in the sight of you being so heartbroken and looking down on yourself. The first thing I want to tell you in response to the painful question, “If someone with a heart fights against it and loses, is it a crime?” is that it is definitely not a “sin.”

I myself have been a teacher for over 30 years, and the anxiety, doubts, and clumsy backlash that young students have are all “factored in” from the mentor's point of view. Teachers are professionals, and they take student conflicts as a process of growth. That wonderful teacher, who regrets that you acted disrespectfully, didn't hate you back then; rather, if you know how you have grown so well now that you can stand above others and notice your own foolishness, you should be happy to narrow your eyes. Please let go of the burden of excessive guilt.

In Buddhism, being aware of one's own foolishness or weakness and sincerely repenting is called “repentance (repentance).” This is not to curse the past and blame oneself; it is an important practice for purifying the mind and living forward. There may be a trend in the world where people can't afford to blame their humanity, but no human being is perfect. It is the experience of facing one's own weakness and struggling that creates a “heart of mercy” to understand the pain of others.

It is the greatest “redemption” in the world, and the greatest way to return the favor to a former teacher is not to remain trapped in the past. It means that you take care of yourself now and live a vibrant life in your current place. And, just as your teacher once faced you, it's time for you to “give back” by extending a generous and warm hand to those around you as a mentor.

The promotion and marriage of people around you is just a timing or event in life, and it is not a report card that determines a person's value. Please acknowledge your own humanity and take good care of the “now” with sincerity and humility. That sincere way of life itself should be a sure light that will save and guide you.

Worship
Engiji Temple Shakujo

Doing good deeds brings comfort

I read it.
I read your thoughts. It conveys that you are very lost and worried about yourself and the world. I don't know the details about you, but I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.

There are so many unreasonable things in life. Evil is rampant, and those who do good are being held responsible or held accountable. Foolish people are creating such a foolish world. That's why strange things are happening all over the place.
But that's a transient thing. It hasn't been a long time since I got caught. Those who do evil always get their rewards and perish.

The Buddha, gods, and ancestors always keep a close eye on us in this world. Anyone who makes bad intentions, or misdeeds will invariably suffer from it. If you do an evil act, the seeds of evil will be sown and grown from that point on, and that evil will always be revealed.
Even if you are not judged by this world or society, you can never escape suffering because you can see the Buddha, gods, and ancestors carefully.
Evil always comes back to itself.

Conversely, if you do good deeds, good rewards will always come to the thing itself. If you do your best for others, you will surely bring good results for yourself. There is always joy and pleasure waiting for us if we do something good in the midst of various encounters that we cannot measure.

How about you? How will they live their lives?

I sincerely pray to Buddha, God, and your ancestors so that you can keep good thoughts, words, and actions in mind every day, appreciate your relationships with the people around you, and be considerate of each other and live a healthy life.
And I will support you from the bottom of my heart.

Being immature, I made it through that time, protected myself, and formed an “me”

I wonder how many people have been blessed with everything, haven't made mistakes, and have lived straight forward. I believe that immaturity became immature, made it through that time, protected oneself, and formed this “me.” Don't you think so too?

At that time, there was a reason for that time. If you deny yourself, you won't be able to stand up for what you are now.

The Buddha sees through human foolishness, and that is why he illuminates any world so that it can shine. The light shines on it, so I can notice that I was covered in dust.

It's a strange relationship that now that you're looking back at yourself, the place you're connected to is Hasunoha. From now on, let's continue to look at our own dust while stopping like this. This is growth, and I think it is a path to richly changing lives.