My boyfriend and I have been widowed.

What happened was unimaginably painful and sad.

I would like to express my sincere condolences on the passing of my precious boyfriend.

It's a sudden farewell. There's no way you can prepare your mind.

As a matter of course, no one was close to me until yesterday.

I can't hear a voice.

The future we were supposed to walk with suddenly disappeared.

It's natural that we can't accept that reality right now.

If you cry, can't go to work, or don't get your hands on anything, it's not because you're weak.

It means we lost someone so important.

The idiot also lost his mother last year.

While I was busy with funerals and procedures, I didn't have to think about anything, but after a break, the loneliness of not having anyone to be there came rushing in.

It's just that every act is impermanent.

However, just because things are impermanent doesn't mean you can immediately accept your grief.

You don't have to try to get back on your feet right now.

I'm going to drink water today.

Eat a little bit.

Lie down even when you can't sleep.

That's all it takes.

However, don't be alone right now.

To his family, friends, and his family

“It's Hard Being Alone”

“I want you to stay by my side”

Please tell them.

The regret of “if I had done this at that time” is not proof that I didn't value him.

I think we were able to do more because it was important.

We spent 3 years together, lived together for 2 years, and even discussed marriage.

Isn't that the answer to the relationship between the two of them?

You cared about him.

He cared about you too.

Even that fact hasn't disappeared due to the accident.

It doesn't matter if you don't think “I'll live to his heart's content” right now.

If he were alive,

“You don't have to hold it alone”

“You don't have to overdo it now”

I think they'll encourage you as always.

You don't have to find a reason to live right now.

However, if you are likely to hurt yourself, never endure it alone and immediately contact someone close to you or number 119.

Let's think about tomorrow tomorrow.

For now, please don't hold it alone.

I read it.
I read that you are very shocked and deeply saddened by the sudden death of your precious boyfriend due to a sudden accident. I don't know the details about you or him, but your feelings of sadness and regret are very conveyed. I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.

I think you've been hurt very deeply now. First, please take care of your own heart and relax. You may not be able to sleep easily, but please sleep as slowly as possible and enjoy a delicious meal. And please heal your mind and body little by little.

I pray with all my heart that he will be at ease from the bottom of my heart. We wholeheartedly agree

Please pray with all your heart that he will be at ease from the bottom of your heart. We wholeheartedly agree

He is always kindly welcomed by close people and ancestors who led him to his destination by Buddha or God. He is saved from any hesitation or suffering under the Buddha, gods, and ancestors, and is at peace from the bottom of his heart. He went on to attain Buddhism cleanly and without any worries. Together with your ancestors, he will continue to gently watch over you and everyone from now on.

Your feelings of sadness and regret won't go away. Please put your hands on the Buddha, God, your ancestors, and him and tell them how they are. Your sorrows and regrets will always reach the Buddha, God, your ancestors, and him, and they will gently accept and comfort you.

Your relationship with him will continue for a long time to come. The Buddha, God, your ancestors, and him will protect you anytime, anywhere, and in any situation.

Also, please share your feelings here. Or feel free to contact us on the following page.
https://bouzsanga.org/letter/
https://www.lifelink.or.jp/inochisos/
https://www.kyoto-jsc.jp/
We look forward to welcoming you. We wholeheartedly agree

It must be painful to lose him and not understand the meaning of life.

He was made a Buddha in the Pure Land, and he is working to save those left behind. Then, you get well, cherish your memories with him, and move forward
Wouldn't that make him feel safe?
There are several ways to meet a deceased boyfriend.
Take a look at the hand I held with him. When you rub those hands together and they get warm
Let's hit it on the cheek. Look, you can feel him.

The fact that you are happy and energetic reassures him and heals you yourself.
I'll write how to do that, so please read it.

＜To me now to you now＞

“Look at anger and suffering with awareness.
By observing, that feeling will disappear naturally.
Don't look for the source, and don't make an effort to get rid of it.
The serenity and calm that is born there are children there
It provides the peace you want.
Both the feeling of being happy and the feeling of being sad are in your emotions.
In other words, unless you heal yourself, you can't heal anyone else. So let's do it. Let's go back to our true self by observing our breathing. That's how you can save not only yourself, but others too.”

I pray that you will be well soon.

It's so painful... it's so sudden that it's so unacceptable, isn't it?
I was so sorry that something had been different that day and then... I wanted to help them.

I want to meet you. I want to hear your voice. I want it to be a dream.
I wonder why she disappeared from before me, and I can't stop crying.
that's sad. It's so painful and unbearable that I can't breathe.

I drew my life with him, and he was always next to me.
Why did they take away such happiness... I hate accidents.

It's really hard for tomorrow to come.
Well, I'm the only one alive without him.
Find your own home. Why, I don't like it, I don't want to leave.

it's painful, isn't it? You can't move, can you? You can't do anything, can you?
It makes me want to scream what I should do from now on.

It must have been difficult to write questions like this.
I'm worried about you. Right now, just let your feelings go and don't put a lid on it.

Hasunoha is connected to the Buddha. Your feelings will reach him.
Put your feelings here. You, too, need a place where you can feel safe talking.

I'm holding a bereaved family meeting in Osaka, but it's a bit far. Having someone listen to you and sharing will also take care of your heart. There are also online individual consultations, and it's important to write them in this way.

Why don't you organize your mind and deliver your feelings for him while facing your own feelings?
I'm here for you so that you don't have to cry alone.