hasunoha

I want to be freed from being hurt by the preferences of the person I like

I think this problem is a problem with myself and my own thoughts, who haven't been able to draw the line between themselves and others.
It's been almost 1 year since we started dating, and I've been suffering the same pain 3 or 4 times with my cheerful lover. Every time I did that, I saw “this is an opportunity to update myself,” but I haven't been able to get out of it yet.
Recently, I've started meditating, and I'm less likely to get caught up in unnecessary thoughts, and I have more time to feel satisfied without anything. Nevertheless, I experienced the same suffering again the other day, and I felt “I haven't been able to get over here yet.”
Specifically, while talking about actresses and artists that your lover has liked in the past, if you listen to stories of people you fell in love with because of their appearance itself, such as “I fell in love with this person because I like their face,” you will be deeply hurt later.
I've almost never fallen in love with someone of the opposite sex “because I like their face,” and I feel like people I fall in love with become the type I like as a result. Therefore, even if you can understand with your head that your lover has such “facial preferences,” there are parts that you cannot fully sympathize with as a feeling.
Of course, I fully understand that “my lover probably fell in love not only with my face, but also with my content and personality,” and “the type I like and the person I actually go out with are different.” Even if I get the same consultation, I think that's the first answer. So I'm not looking for such general answers.
I don't want to break up the conversation on the spot, so I keep it normal, but later I'm keenly aware that “I don't fit into this person's favorite face.” (Because the lineage is actually different)
From there, I couldn't stop thinking “why are you dating me,” “I'm happier if I go out with the type of person I like more,” and “I think it would be better for me to withdraw,” and it sometimes dragged on for about a week. Even when I look at photos taken together, I think “we are disproportionate,” and I can't even like myself.
I don't want to blame the other person, nor do I want them to change their preferences. I want to free myself from this suffering that is born every time as a result of this event.
In this way, how does Buddhism capture a state where the heart is hurt even though it is understood in the head, and suffering increases in a chain of thoughts?
Also, I would like you to tell me how to have a heart, thoughts, and practices to become free from there.

5 Zen Responses

May you be saved

I read it.
I read that you are deeply hurt. I don't know the details of your heart, but it conveys your painful feelings. I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.
I think you know “people are people, and I am myself.” However, I think they will inevitably apply it to themselves, and on the other hand, they will get caught up in themselves and hurt themselves.
We are living in this society and the world together, and we are living by helping and sharing. However, they are all born and raised differently, and their values and preferences are different.
You can understand your partner better, but you can't accept them all in common. That's because we're not Buddhas or gods.
Also, our values and preferences are constantly changing as we age. Nor will it stay the same forever.
It's something that both you and him will naturally change. What is important also changes depending on age and each condition and situation.
Once again, please take a leisurely look at it from within yourself, and take a bird's-eye view of the future ahead.
I sincerely pray that you and he will be able to face the future firmly and live a rich life with peace of mind, and that you will be able to cherish relationships with people and things, share happiness, and survive. We wholeheartedly agree

There is no way he can have a monopoly on him, and his thoughts and values are unique to him. I want to respect

If you apply one value to everything, it will be difficult.
Nor did he determine that his “preferences” are the case with everything. Also, it's something you “like,” including preferences for the contents and appearance. Celebrities in particular gain fans while also having visual prowess, so it's no wonder that there are people who are attracted to them.

If he really doesn't think he fits his favorite face, then he'll say goodbye. However, even if it's a “face” you like, you probably want to say “your favorite type,” including facial expressions, smiles, voices, and gestures.

Nor can we have a monopoly on him, and his thoughts and values are unique to him. A relationship where you can respect him without letting yourself get into the world he draws is also a relationship where you can cherish each other's boundaries, isn't it?

A lover is not yours

Buddhism explains that the law (concept thought in the head) is selfless (like an illusion without substance) as a premise for meditating.
For example, the concept of “I (myself)” is selfless.
Cells are replaced by metabolism, and the mind floats, disappears, and is replaced moment by moment.
Therefore, the existence of oneself is also a conceptual temporary existence.
The members of a prestigious high school baseball team are replaced in 3 years, so even though the school names are the same, it's actually the same as being different people.
If “myself” is an illusion, then “my own thing” and “my lover” are also conceptual illusions.
We can't even maneuver our own bodies the way we want, such as hitting our feet against the corner of furniture.
What's more, even if they're lovers, they're other people, so of course things don't go the way I want them to.
It's like a small bird that just happened to come to the garden of my house and flew away on a whim.
If you put a label with the delusional distraction or stereotype of “my lover” there, it will be an opportunity to activate worries such as greed, anger, laziness, pride, etc., and as a result, it will lead to trouble, suffering, and stress.
If there is a cause, an effect will occur, and if the cause disappears, the result will also disappear.
Delusional distractions about the past, the future, and oneself and others are the cause, and results such as worry, suffering, and stress occur.
Worries and suffering are also reduced during the time when delusional distractions stop.
Well, since we're unaware, it's unavoidable that we have delusional distractions and worries.
The mind is impermanent. Every moment, a new heart, a new self.
Just as the screen returns to a white cloth when the movie is over, once the delusional distractions have passed, the mind returns to a quiet state like during meditation.
If it's messy, I'll put it back; if it's messy, I'll put it back.
Don't worry, all you have to do is live until you die over and over again.
Note, it's not uncommon for wild animals to choose mates based on appearance when choosing mates.
It's a function inherent in an animal body, so let's think it can't be helped.

this is selfish speculation, but...

I think he likes not only what's inside of you, but also your face. If you didn't like your face, you wouldn't say, “I fell in love with this person because I liked your face.”

But this is just a convenient speculation for you, and the details of the consultation are just speculations.

“All laws and nothing” can be interpreted in any way according to one's own assumptions. If it's the same guess, I think it's okay to choose the one that is convenient for you.

I think he loves Juri.

Please contact us, Juri.

The type of face you like is different from the type of face you like when you have been in a relationship with for 1 year.
That makes me feel frustrated and uneasy.
There was such a thing.

Juri loves her partner, doesn't she?
I think it's an easy thought line to fall into if you really like it.

That's not Juri's fault, it's not a healing story,
However, I just want to say that it's okay to cherish someone you've fallen in love with.
After that, let's forgive the type of face the man you fell in love with.

If you bind yourself to that point, it will gradually become more difficult for your opponent.
That's because he likes Juri right now.

Also, let's stop assuming that I'm not your type.

Thank you for liking me even if I'm not my type. If you feel like that, you won't even feel like that.

Also, think about it carefully. If Juri's face type is completely different from that type of woman, it is his instinct that he broke with his concept and fell in love with Juri. Have you noticed that?

They're different from my type, but I feel safe having something together. The conversation gets exciting when we talk about something together. It's kind of exciting. It's fun. Something is laughing at.

I wonder if that's fine.

Rather than talking about one piece of poop on your face, it's better to spend your time feeling grateful to someone you like and put in

It will benefit Juri, and in turn, it will benefit both of them.

I sincerely pray for the happiness of the two of you.