On living as a male homosexual
I'm a 20 year old male college student living in Tokyo.
I like men because of my own sexuality, but I had a lot of trouble knowing about the gay world.
There is no discrimination, but in the straight world, dates and meals often lead to sexual intercourse, but for some reason in the gay world, there is an image that many people suddenly enter from physical relationships.
I want to protect my own body, and for that reason, I have tried to use preventive drugs since my previous reflection, but I have various regrets, such as forgetting to use birth control devices.
I received a venereal disease test and was negative for gonococcus, chlamydia, HIV, and syphilis, and I'm worried that syphilis was also infected from the reaction that is happening now, but since the doctor opened a period and got tested negative, it is said that I don't need to worry too much, but I have a personality that makes me think too much due to my own personality, so I plan to test again.
In Japan, almost all clinics offer free medical treatment, and parents were told that it was unthinkable to have sex with men.
Statistically, it is famous that there are many cases of venereal diseases among male homosexuals, and it is enough to choose a partner and do it appropriately, but I have never said that 100% risk can be prevented, so I'm worried. Since I'm a college student, it's said that it's good to do what I like, but it's frustrating to think about whether I can take responsibility for what I've done (for example, when I get a venereal disease).
I stopped the app because I thought it wasn't suitable for matching apps.
I think sexual intercourse should be enjoyed safely, but as I experienced various things, I became afraid of sexual intercourse itself, and I became less attracted to romance.
I'm glad I became close to people of the same sexuality,
I'm starting to wonder if it's possible to get away from the gay world and start something else I'm interested in (like a new hobby).
The sentences aren't organized, but I have a feeling that life as a gay person might not be right.
I'm sorry that the sentences aren't organized.
I'm on summer vacation, and I would be happy if you could give me advice on my future life, attitudes, and things I should take care of.
