It's painful and very painful.
I celebrated my birthday today (9/5), and now I'm 32 years old.
It has become difficult to live.
My direct supervisor at the company where I work as a temporary employee told me, “The number of cases taken has decreased from last year, and even though they are doing the same job, I can only think that they are skipping it.” It was added, “We are only 70% better than last year, so please do your best to get as much as last year.” Their hard work wasn't appreciated, and they went to work without taking a break to study the job description.
Moreover, there are cranky employees in the current department who are not good at it, and they only greet people they like. I also said in the past, “Lower your voice and speak!” I was yelled at, and from there, I was careful not to speak out loud when that employee was there. Even when I say hello, they ignore me, and I'm talking to my favorite female employee in a loud voice when I point it out to others.
I couldn't stand it, and the temporary staffing agency pointed it out as an environmental improvement, but nothing changed.
When I go to work every day, my breath becomes difficult and my body feels strong.
When I was 28, I went to a psychiatrist and took stabilizers after becoming depressed and had an adjustment disorder. However, I didn't want to be dependent on bulky medicine for medical expenses, so now I'm putting up with it without taking it. I've been at the meeting for 1 year now, and I'm mentally exhausted every day and I feel so overwhelmed that I can't do anything at home.
It's painful not only at work, but also at home because I can't rest my mind.
At age 28, I became depressed and couldn't work, so I'm living at my parents' house.
It can't be helped that life with my mother who is tingling, and my older sister, who doesn't do housework but is mentally unwell, is difficult.
My mother is over 60, and as long as I'm at home, I have to help with housework etc. It's tough to feel my mother's aura and words too much due to the pain of being told “I'm a good age and don't do anything” and “everyone is already living alone or at the age where they are mothers.” Neither my sister nor my sister help with the housework. I stayed in my room and only said and did what I liked... The convenience of family errands is also imposed.
Even if I want to be alone, I don't have a room, and even if I get used to it, it's a common area, so I can't calm down because someone comes in and out.
My goal is to live alone. However, even after reviewing my money, things didn't go well, and I'm impatient. Even if I want to change jobs, I'm afraid that my mom will quit again.
I'm already exhausted from feeling down, and I want to go away and feel better.
What should I do... It's painful.