A divorce you can't decide
I'll talk about it as it is. My husband's debts have been discovered, and I'm considering a divorce. Of course, debt isn't the only cause. My husband loves women, gambling, and alcohol, and I've shed tears many times in the past. I don't know how many times I've heard the phrase “I won't do it again, I'll do it properly next time.” Still, I loved it and forgave it.
However, when I heard those words this time, I thought, “Again... why have I believed these words until now?”
The biggest factor in deciding to get divorced was that I felt that I wasn't taken care of. My husband played freely while I was struggling with my divorce. I didn't understand that. I cried and talked to people in both families about getting divorced.
Even so, as the days go by, I still wonder if there is a way to live with this person. We've been living together for over ten years. It's like a part of my life.
However, when I think about my husband's laid-back relationship with the Yoshizane family, etc., I also think that they will only cry and be unhappy even when they are together.
Today, too, I'm at a loss because of these conflicting feelings. It's already been 2 months since I thought about it every day for a long time. I just can't decide whether to get divorced or not. I didn't see such a situation, and the Yoshizane family told me not to get involved with my family even though I wasn't prepared to get divorced.
I don't know what to do.