Recently, even though I've been getting so much help from my friends and lovers who are kind to me, it seems like I'm only bothering them, such as feeling bad or being disadvantaged.
Is it worth living even for me like this?
Sorry for the backward question.
I really appreciate that you just read it.
If you don't mind, thank you for your answers.
“I (I) have no value”
We say and think things like this, but in fact, we have a big misunderstanding.
What is the value of existence
“Existence itself has value”
That's what it means.
So
Everything that exists in the world has value as it is.
It means that things that have no value do not exist in the first place.
You are worth your existence.
For me, for dogs and cats, for swallows and sparrows
For everything.
But it's worth your existence. It's not something that can be easily expressed in words like that.
No matter what kind of you you are, you're probably an indispensable daughter for your parents, and she's probably an indispensable girlfriend for him, and anyway, just having you is valuable.
I'm aware that when people treat me kindly or kindly, I'm causing trouble, and I'm wondering if it's okay to be myself like this.
Television, the world, or your parents' evaluations don't necessarily mean that your worth is just what you value.
It would be nice if you weren't swayed by evaluations from others like that, but that tends to happen when you're in the same environment for a long time.
Maybe it's just the values you know and think about right now that I'm at a loss.
Why don't you expand those values?
For example, when you meet the type of people you've never met before, you can see that they live with completely different values. Whether you listen to the same music, watch the same movie, or eat the same thing, your impressions will be different. Of course, there may also be similar places.
If you deal with various people that way, your tastes and feelings are different, and you can understand that they all have different values. Foreigners are particularly easy to understand.
That's how I went
I always meet people who say, “But I love this kind of thing about you,” and “That's wonderful.”
It takes courage, but it's a way to expand one's values and understand the value of living.
Besides, it's worth living even now. I think your friends and lovers will also be kind to you because there are places where they feel comfortable being with you.
Your friends and lovers probably know good things that you wouldn't notice on your own.
So it's worth living well even now.
For someone, all you have to do is just have you.
I think some people would be sad if you weren't there.
It's worth being alive.
There are always things that benefit someone, even just a little bit.
So, it's fine ^^
Goto-sama
This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.
Everything in this world, both you and I, is made up of being dependent on others. In Buddhism, this is called “luck” (luck) as “happening through relationships.”
Simply put, we are able to live by being helped and supported by various things and things (natural activities, human activities, etc.).
Everyone is like each other, and there is no need to be so despised that “only I am...”
If you are grateful for being helped and supported and want to give something back, or if you want to return the favor, it would be nice if you could return something with what you can do.
Of course, you can't overdo it.
For example, in Buddhism, there is a good act called “seven acts for nothing,” and among them, it is also a merit to return a sincere return rather than money or goods, such as returning a smile as a “peace of mind,” or returning words with kindness and compassion as an “act of love.”
It doesn't matter what you can do, so it would be nice if you could show your appreciation or appreciation in an attitude.
It doesn't matter if life is worth living or not.
In short, it is important to have a firm understanding that this world is made up of mutual support, help, and sharing, and to think carefully about what to do and whether we can spend a better and happier time with each other.
Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho
That's because you can't be kind without a partner.
That friend also wants “someone to be kind to.”
I think your good point is that you “honestly accept and appreciate the kindness of others.”
Someday, when those friends are in trouble, let's help them in your own way.
Also, let's try if you can do the kindness you've received to others.