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About past killings

Since I was a child, I have tormented and cruelly killed insects.
When I was in junior college, there were a lot of cockroaches at balsan etc.
(Maybe a few hundred to a thousand or more?)
Even after that, I killed countless people while driving.

Currently, I sincerely repent, don't kill myself, donate to nature conservation organizations,
Every night, I apologize and pray for the bugs in my own way,
Does this really have any meaning?
Is there anything else we can do?

To be honest, hell is scary, so bright, etc.
I can't stay alive.
Is there any salvation for me like this?

I'm really suffering.
It doesn't matter if your opinions are harsh.
Thank you so much for your support.

3 Zen Responses

You were saved by the existence of hell

 Modern Japanese people are afraid of failure, aren't they? If you fail even once, it's hard to return to a society. The first Abe Cabinet 10 years ago also focused on that, set the slogan “challenge again,” and aimed for a society where “winners” and “losers” were not created.
It seems that you too have fallen into the modern Japanese feeling that “once you have done it, you are not allowed.”

Hell is scary, isn't it? If you look at pictures of hell, etc., it's disastrous, and there's no salvation at all. I am devoting myself to suffering a great deal. Why did people in the olden days paint such cruel pictures? It wasn't a depiction of someone trying to fall into hell, and people who saw it said, “I don't like hell. I think it was drawn to make people think, “Let's stop doing bad things.” It's a deterrent.

You also felt “I don't like hell” and reflected on it. Hell has saved you from evil.
In Buddhism, there is no such thing as “once a sin has been committed, it cannot be undone.” You can “re-challenge” as many times as you like every day. If you reflect and be careful not to do it anymore, you will be saved. If you fail, you can reflect on it again and start over from there.

It is said that they are now reflecting on it and making donations to nature conservation organizations. I think it's very good.
From now on, summer, memorial services such as “osegaki” and “Obon” will be held at each temple. It is a memorial service for so many lives. Be sure to actively participate.

Also, there is a chant called a “confession statement,” which reflects on past misdeeds and cleans the mind, so I'll put it on.
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/4966

There have been interesting questions and answers in the past, so I'll post this one too.
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/1648

If you do nembutsu, you won't fall into hell

With Namu Amida Buddha and Nembutsu, it is said that if you wish to be born in the Pure Land of Paradise, any villain can be born (pass away) in the Pure Land of Paradise after death due to the power of Amida Buddha.
There are no three evils in the Pure Land of Paradise, and Hell, so if you pass away in paradise, you won't fall into hell.
While good people are good people and bad people are bad people, you can simply call them “Namu Amida Buddha (Namu Amida Butsu)” as they were born.
It's better not to kill, but even bad people who did kill can pass away with the power of Amida Buddha if they do nembutsu.
When Amitabha sees good people, he is happy, and when he sees bad people, he laments but doesn't abandon bad people.

We are the only ones who can live while killing. and beyond.

Mots-sama

My name is Shakkeishin.

I was worried, so I took a look.

You've been so heartbroken about your own murder.

The reality is that we continue to kill a lot other than killing ourselves.

Just killing carnivores or visible insects is not killing.

From medical supplies to leather goods, clothing, and furniture, our activities can only be built on many lives.

Even if you're breathing, you're probably killing small bacteria and microbes.

That is humans.

It's sinful, isn't it?

Mushi-san probably had a family just like us.

However, insects cannot exist without leaving this world.

Of course, it's important to try not to kill people as much as possible,
More than that, it is important for me to open my eyes to the fact that I cannot live without it.

sorry! thank you! Thank you so much!
I have no choice but to live with shame.

It can make us realize that we are inherently sinful.

Above all else, Amitabha Buddha made a wish for salvation for me alone, who is sinful and cannot fully devotion no matter how far I go,

He was trained in ascetic practices, made a vow to always save, and became Amida Buddha.

Also, please finish it with the name of Namu Amida Buddha.

I was sworn that anyone calling this name would always be born in my country, and I was repeatedly sworn that if this did not come true, I would not become a Buddha.

He is already made up of Buddha.

Abandon your sins, be strong, calm your worries, and come this far,
Amitabha doesn't say that.

I know very well that you can't let go of your worries.
Weak ones have already been known from everywhere.

That's why I practiced ascetic practices instead.
We have prepared everything from 1 to 100 good deeds and merits here.
It's the sound of Namu Amida Buddha, and I'll go all the way to that mouth.
Please don't worry.

I am still holding my sins, I am still weak, I am still plagued by afflictions, and I am looking for Amida.

I really became aware of Amita's work, and when I was told about my sinful appearance, it came out of my own accord.

That is Namu Amida Buddha

I promise that you will always save me.

No matter how many 9s line up after 99, it doesn't always happen.

Let's honestly say yes and put our hands together.