hasunoha

Am I overthinking things?

Nice to meet you.
I've been thinking about life in my own way for a long time, since I was in middle school.

When I was young, I tried to live properly (in simple terms, basic things I learn in morality), and I thought that it would make me happy.

However, looking back until now, correctness has been a different presence in my life than being happy.

Why do they lie, why do they talk backwards, why aren't they kind, why don't they stand in the other person's shoes and talk, why are they hurt and hurt...

By having these kinds of meaningless questions and continuing to think about them, I think there are times when I have made my loved ones feel stifled and sad. In fact, I've been told that I can't live that properly and that it's painful to watch you...

Also, probably because I'm too obsessed with correctness, I can't do anything when I think that my strong desires to be fulfilled above all else can only be achieved on the grief of others, and my head and heart often scream due to contradictions with emotions and feelings that cannot be digested.
(Of course, there are times when I can't control it. (At that time, I screamed out of self-loathing...)

What happened at that time was, “People live in this world to suffer. By suffering and karma in this world, people live to break out of the circle of reincarnation.” That was one sentence.

It's a strange story, but I felt so saved. I felt like I was told that there is no need to be happy, and that it is not wrong to suffer in search of correctness.

However (it's been a pretty long preface...) it's really fundamental, but to be honest, I also wonder if it's necessary to think this far and live.
If you talk like this to people close to you, they'll tell you that you don't have to think that far.

Am I... thinking too much?
Is it healthier to be a little more carefree and seek happiness...
(However, even now, I'm by no means unhappy, and I'm living days where I'm rather ungrateful, so the word happy may be a bit misleading...)

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4 Zen Responses

I'm going to spend my free time.

As a result of being extremely worried, you arrived at that idea.

If you're answering the question of whether you're overthinking it, that's not true.
Thinking more and more and getting to the bottom of “correctness” and “happiness” is also
I don't think it's a bad thing at all.

However, with regard to the question of whether it is healthier to be a little more relaxed and seek happiness,
I think that might be the case.
It's up to me to decide whether it's “healthy,” so even if you leave it alone,
It's not bad to be a little more carefree and seek happiness.

I don't think “people live in this world to suffer.”
Buddha became a monk in order to get away from suffering such as “life, old age, illness, and death,”
I reached enlightenment after meditating.

As you said yourself, Arimu-san may be too obsessed with correctness.
Why do they lie, why do they talk backwards, why aren't they kind...,
Everything like that is someone else's act when you look at it or not.
The first thing to do is try to be right,
You can just leave others alone.

If you spend a little “idle time,” you'll have a more enjoyable time.
“Iikagane” means “good moderation.”
It means knowing the middle path and avoiding extremes.

If you deepen your thoughts about “correctness” and “happiness” while being aware of the middle path,
Soon, I think it's just right for me,
I think we can find a path that is not difficult even if we seek correctness.

Let's be refreshed if we let them resolve the issues they raised themselves.

You are
・I have slashed others and even myself with the sword of justice called correctness.
・Even though my problem had not been solved by myself, I was forcing others to do it.
I don't think you've probably met the real “correctness.”
“Correctness” and “justice” are ideas, and they are a kind of dangerous idea.

What humans “should be”
Heaven, Earth, and nature's “should be”
What the Buddha, who is the ultimate human being, “should have” is different.
True correctness is by no means such a cramped thing.
“People live in this world to suffer. By suffering and karma in this world, people live to break out of the circle of reincarnation.”
↑ If there are any contradictions in this passage,
You don't have to live a miserable way of living “to suffer.”
When I think of this life, I think of the next life. Right after that, the real world, right now, is neglected. What made you suffer was probably the sense of justice and the rules you made yourself.
I've broken that in this world right now, so I've been able to break out of the circle of negative infinity.
So, even if you are saved, this passage also sounds a bit ridiculous, so try to believe words that are a little more rational and have clarity, which can be understood by the general public.
What kind of heart is a heart that doesn't discuss presence or absence, and is unbiased by presence or absence.
If you are interested, please come to the zazen session.

Anger is also distressing.

Since anger is affliction, it is the cause of worry and suffering.
Even if justice is the reason, I am the one who suffers when I get angry.
So, the ideal way for the Buddha to live is to live properly and not get angry at evil.
Even if it's right, if you get angry, you lose, but that's the rule of the game called Buddhist training.
In order not to get angry, it would be effective to have compassion and compassion for others.
To that end, how about imagining someone else's life, upbringing, and the circumstances and abilities that force them to do so?

“Don't bother people”

 “Why?” in the first half Everyone in the series has the same answers. “Because I'm cute, because I'm the most important thing in the world.” If you ask it, it might be Naanda, but the foundation is that “humans can't live like an ideal life.” If you get this far, it's the same root as “not being able to live that properly.” Why can't we get there? I think it's probably because “correctness” is “only above words.” Or from “Buddha (who is written as human) = someone who is not a human being” is “correct.”
In other words, I think “know that correctness cannot be fully pursued.” I don't think I'm saying don't pursue it or throw it away. “If you don't pursue it thoroughly, you won't be convinced!” That is obsession.
Don't you want to give up on that...? Are you scared? But that's neither a disadvantage nor a weakness. Rather, it's a state of waking up from a dream. I feel like this leads to “happiness.”
What I think is a typical example is the “right idea” of “don't cause trouble to people.” “Don't hurt or make others sad. Don't let yourself be sad.” It is “the correct answer on a 100-point scale, there is no problem at all in terms of language,” but it stumbles as soon as you try to implement it. When you understand that “I can't do it right with words”...
Be humble and begin the days of gratitude. “You can say sorry for yourself.” “You can spoil others.” There are times when “I am the cutest” person can still lend a little bit of a hand to others. I think that is where “the human world appreciates.”
One more thing, “are you thinking too much?” That's it. Occasionally, when I hear people in the world speak loudly (in short, I'm proud), “I'm happy to buy that, I'm happy to go on a trip,” I don't feel very good. “I'm glad it looked like fun,” though. ... More than that, I like semi-serendipitous joy. It makes me happy when I think I have the sense to notice “a little happiness, a little thank you.”
Yes, it means “rather than seeking happiness, I want to be myself aware of happiness.”
If there is something perfect for you in Hasunoha's answers, I think there will be fewer opportunities for this question to come up for the time being. Wouldn't that be fine, even if you keep thinking about it? “When I thought about it, I forgot to brush my teeth!” Well, I think so.